I realize that whenever i feel down, then i will think of blogging. My ball has ended, & i can say it was really fun. Freaking fun. From taking pics to gossiping to dancing & liqour. Sometimes i really hate blogger, i tried to post the pics, but it takes so long to upload. & i wanna upload 60 plus pics. Its gonna take me 24 hours i guess. Maybe when im feeling better and less crappy, i will do that. My final exams are around the corner and i haven start studying. Maybe i become lazier when i come here? or because of all the fattening food i ate here which cause me to be fatter & lazier? I dont know. People always think that coming to Aust to study is easy, what life is relaxing, not so stress. Sometimes i wish those ppl dont give such bullshit. You never been here before, so dont give comments. Im not saying its very stressed here. Coming here has to handle the new environment plus studies. I've been here for like 2 months, you can say i have already adapted to the life here, and you can say i cant too. I really find abit tough to manage things well. Well, i really dont know too. Sometimes, how i wish, i am some sort of statue or a vegetable or maybe a sleeping beauty, jsut lie in bed, dream of those fairytales of lovely dreams. But wake up, bernie. Its pointless. I dont know I dont know. Looking around facebook, suddenly gives me a feeling or i dont know again. I feel like going home. I feel like finding my friends way back there. Friends here are great, but not as genuine as my oldie friends. Sometimes, im not sure whether to trust them or not. After all, we known each other for 2 months only. How i wish i am some nerd who spend most of my time on books or research or figure out come new math formula or science solution, then i wouldnt have to be the normal kids to go around talking to ppl, & sometimes have to fake smiles at ppl, even you dont really like them. Thats a way of friendliness or whatsoever. Just hope that im not me now. Just give me a few mins of not me, then i'll come back to the me again. Okay, im crapping AGAIN. whatever, jsut feel pissed at dont know who. Maybe me. & i realize i uses alot of sometimes. Unhappy? dont read that word.
Specifically for elaine, my dear buddy, i know i haven update my life here with you. Maybe give me another week or when im back in jb, i really misses you. I really have lots to say. Its not words or typing in emails can explain. I give you a call asap when i landed, alright? love you, girl. Dont be mad at me!
To friends that are concerned about me too, sorry if i didn reply you in msn, or i didn call you in msn. The reason why i online is to ask school work and stuff. I text you guys when im back, okay?! sorry & thank you.
