I have the sudden urge to blog again today. I realise i have wonderful friends around me. It just takes time for me to realise. I do cherish you guys & i can say i really miss all of you too. From friends that i knew since young, to the ones i made in secondary school or even outside school, Thanks to those who really rmb me, miss me, care abt me. I love you guys.
bernie
5:48 AM
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Finally i have the mood to blog. I've been here for more than a week but school only started for 3 days. & now, i dont feel like going. I have 5 units a day. Totally no rest time, plus im taking two new subjects. Its not that i dont wanna study or go to school, i want, seriously, Just suddenly feel so tired & empty. When my sisters & friends send me at the airport, i was really alright. At least quite okay. But now, im not. I dont know what to do. I have lots of stuff to handle a day. School starts 8 & end at 3. Come home gotta think what to eat for lunch, as school canteen's food is too expensive. I cant eat too heavy as dinner will be quite early. If i dont eat alot at dinner, uncle & auntie (landlord & landlady) will think that i dont like their food. I have laundry to do, clean my room, fold my clothes. All things that i nv do before, i have to do. In school, its not like spore secondary or college. Now in taylors, they change their curriculum like university. You cant find a person that have same exact class at you. All diff class & subjects. I get into class, i see all new faces. Im in the accelerated program which means im a new student & i dont know ppl too. Like in accounting class, im the only one that have nv ever touch accounting before.There's arnd 20 in the class, so see, im the last. I can understand a little. But i cant catch up with them. Then in order to do that, i have to spend extra time. I indeed have time. But its full. Im taking 2 maths units this term. One is easier, i learn before in AMaths. The other is Further Maths, which i nv touch before & worse, the teacher that tteach me DOESNT know how to teach, The entire class doesnt understand what he's talking abt. See, then i have to take extra time to go read out & solve myself. English is not as simple as spore. I have Research to do. Research abt my courses. Have to surf the net, do this do that & bla bla bla. Though i meet friends in school like from all other countries, not one can be counted a close one. Unlike spore college or murdoch college, you dont have a class where everyone will still be together & hang arnd. I walk arnd the school & all i can see is strangers and teachers. In taylors, its a college for international students, so no local [australian] will study here. Therefore, ppl from China, Hongkong,Japan,Korea, Brunei, Vietnam, Spore, Msia, Brazil, Arab ppl & more will be hanging arnd. So its no diff from studying in a asia country. At home when i feel like talking to ppl, i only have my housemate, rita. She's a nice girl which will bring me arnd school, city & places that girls like to go. At least there's someone at home i will feel comfortable with. Talking to uncle & aunty is nice too. They will care abt me. Ask me how's school today & stuff. Which makes me feel like im at home. But I still miss my home. Home in JB. I miss daddy, mummy, jie jie, bev & beck, I miss my room, i miss my bed. I miss my laughther I miss my friends. I miss times where we hang out together laugh, go crazy, take pictures, speak heart to heart. I just miss my place. Its only been 1 weeks plus & i miss home. I have to stay here for another 3 years 7 months plus. Just help me, someone. Though how hard i keep reminding myself not to do that, i'll will still feel sad for a minute, let me miss everyone for a second. After that, i gotta tell myself, its time to study, motivate myself, dont disappoint those who look highly in me. Its alright, i know what to do, sometimes just give me a few moments of thinking what i cherish the most.
P.S bev or bon, Dont you ever tell mum or dad. I dont wanna them to know.
p.p.s Dad, mum, jie, bev, boy! i miss all of you... bernie
1:48 AM
Monday, April 14, 2008
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SQ 225, Terminal 3 Leaving on 15th night/16th midnight
Bye everyone! Im leaving Home!
Bernie
9:02 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
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Dont make plans, make options
Hey guys! Im confirm leaving on tuesday night. My visa & everything are done. I've started packing my stuff too. Well, im entitled to 40kg which means i got to bring ALOT of things there! Mummy has been helping me pack this few days. Both of us are going mad soon to think what things we left! Haha. Mummy really doesnt want me to go. She'll misses me alot, i guess? Haha. I will miss you, mum! Dont worry! =D Daddy & Mummy are accompaning me there too. Lucky? They going to Burswood for? CASINO. haha. I'll be taking SIA & i cant online check-in now to know whether which terminal. But most prob will be terminal 2 or 3? Idk! My home-stay! Its a chinese family. A mother & son staying together in a 5 rooms + 2 bathrooms house. & there's gonna be me inside in a few days. Internet access is available[thank god]. But laundry? I gotta do myself. Well, i guess im gonna miss my maid too. The landlady most prob will be sporean, msian or maybe hongkki. The son is 1 year older than me! His name is ken, that's what i know. Hope they are nice ppl so my life there wont be so miserable.
Before the date when im leaving is coming soon, i was really excited. But now as days passed by, & im leaving in 2 days time, i cant bear to leave. My family especially, my relatives, friends, & whoever i meet. I have a farewell party yest. It was fun. Wasnt really that emotional. Certain aunts spend time talking to me, telling me this & that, to take care of myself & stuff. Though we dont see each other often, the kinship is still there. They are all concerned abt me, care abt me. Which makes me wanna cry. I receive red packets from them, little gifts, letters from my little cousins! They are really cute. & i love them. I wont forget them. Dad's friends came to wish me too. Telling me things that i should be careful & be caution. Well, at first it was quite awkward. But it was really alright after that. We hang out like we're little kids. Talk stuff & they even joke i'll be back with a XL size. Omg. How evil, they are! Haha.
Past few days, ive been quite moody too. But there's friends to cheer me up. Thanks guys! I wont forget you all! I'll be meeting yx, rl& tx in spore tmr. Anything can contact or find me in spore.