Finally i have the mood to blog. I've been here for more than a week but school only started for 3 days. & now, i dont feel like going. I have 5 units a day. Totally no rest time, plus im taking two new subjects. Its not that i dont wanna study or go to school, i want, seriously, Just suddenly feel so tired & empty. When my sisters & friends send me at the airport, i was really alright. At least quite okay. But now, im not. I dont know what to do. I have lots of stuff to handle a day. School starts 8 & end at 3. Come home gotta think what to eat for lunch, as school canteen's food is too expensive. I cant eat too heavy as dinner will be quite early. If i dont eat alot at dinner, uncle & auntie (landlord & landlady) will think that i dont like their food. I have laundry to do, clean my room, fold my clothes. All things that i nv do before, i have to do. In school, its not like spore secondary or college. Now in taylors, they change their curriculum like university. You cant find a person that have same exact class at you. All diff class & subjects. I get into class, i see all new faces. Im in the accelerated program which means im a new student & i dont know ppl too. Like in accounting class, im the only one that have nv ever touch accounting before.There's arnd 20 in the class, so see, im the last. I can understand a little. But i cant catch up with them. Then in order to do that, i have to spend extra time. I indeed have time. But its full. Im taking 2 maths units this term. One is easier, i learn before in AMaths. The other is Further Maths, which i nv touch before & worse, the teacher that tteach me DOESNT know how to teach, The entire class doesnt understand what he's talking abt. See, then i have to take extra time to go read out & solve myself. English is not as simple as spore. I have Research to do. Research abt my courses. Have to surf the net, do this do that & bla bla bla. Though i meet friends in school like from all other countries, not one can be counted a close one. Unlike spore college or murdoch college, you dont have a class where everyone will still be together & hang arnd. I walk arnd the school & all i can see is strangers and teachers. In taylors, its a college for international students, so no local [australian] will study here. Therefore, ppl from China, Hongkong,Japan,Korea, Brunei, Vietnam, Spore, Msia, Brazil, Arab ppl & more will be hanging arnd. So its no diff from studying in a asia country. At home when i feel like talking to ppl, i only have my housemate, rita. She's a nice girl which will bring me arnd school, city & places that girls like to go. At least there's someone at home i will feel comfortable with. Talking to uncle & aunty is nice too. They will care abt me. Ask me how's school today & stuff. Which makes me feel like im at home. But I still miss my home. Home in JB. I miss daddy, mummy, jie jie, bev & beck, I miss my room, i miss my bed. I miss my laughther I miss my friends. I miss times where we hang out together laugh, go crazy, take pictures, speak heart to heart. I just miss my place. Its only been 1 weeks plus & i miss home. I have to stay here for another 3 years 7 months plus. Just help me, someone. Though how hard i keep reminding myself not to do that, i'll will still feel sad for a minute, let me miss everyone for a second. After that, i gotta tell myself, its time to study, motivate myself, dont disappoint those who look highly in me. Its alright, i know what to do, sometimes just give me a few moments of thinking what i cherish the most.
P.S bev or bon, Dont you ever tell mum or dad. I dont wanna them to know.
p.p.s Dad, mum, jie, bev, boy! i miss all of you... bernie