Its better to have love that lost, than you never loved at all

This sunday, im going cottesloe beach with the gang! yay! finally Bel can go, so we all can have fun! im so excited! cant wait for it. and Yes, i got the first 3 episodes of GG. damn happy. time to watch! be back soon.

P.s For goodnees sake, sweetkonek, dont you have anything to do? stop spamming ppl's blog. and for some reason you're coward, shut the hell up and go away. you have nothing that worth my time to deal with. Yes, im a bitch, least im better than you. ohhhh, i forgot, pathetic.

5:02 AM

Sunday, October 12, 2008

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In the face of true love, you never give up—even when the object of your affection is begging you to - Chuck Bass

Well, same old thing. Workload is still pilling up. I happen to go uwa today and found out its a little waste of time. Well, except for non-stop typing for 2 hours? The environment issues arent really the topic that i want for eco. Basically, nothing much. Plus yest night, i caught a movie on channel seven, Eurotrip. You guys might wanna watch it, watch till the all male nude beach, you will puke. Norm girls will go 'wow' right, i bet, no one wanna see. GROSS.
Im just so bored doing work that i have to crap stuff. I went to wiki and read everything abt GG. Like i said, im crazy and mad about them. The Non-Judging Breakfast Club is the best and my love of all for the show. xoxo
I cant wait for this term to end and hols will come. The Saturday Lunch Routine, My best family day and of course, lovely and comfy bed of mine. You guys wait, counting down to 9 weeks.

Its been so dead here. No one cares abt me. hahaha :D

Love,
Bernie

8:46 AM

Friday, October 10, 2008

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Well, my blog seems so dead. Apparently, im so busy with school work, doing other stuff that i totally forgotten about Davie. Anyone knows Davie? I guess not alot. I was just viewing all my all entries when i found out that i don’t upload pictures v often. Maybe bcos bs takes a long time to upload all my lovely lovely pics. Mum has given me the cam, but im just so lazy to upload. Blame bs not me. Well, i’ve tried using lj too. But im still hesitating. Any opinions? I realise its 10/10 which is my sis bday. Happy bday, my love! I should be there with you to celebrate! I give you 1 present in advance first [you know you love me, xoxo, Gossip Girl], sexy right, my voice? Hahaha. I cant wait to watch GG. Just because my internet is v slow, doesn’t mean i cant watch. But someone save me! YES! Feng’s GG.

It sucks for the new term in Taylors. Esp with Patrick teaching me 2 Eng. All the while, im still getting the hang of eng. Its real hard for me. Language will so be out of my life if possible. Econs, been forced to take, if not uni life will be miserable too. Maths, Enright, cant he just give me a nicer attitude when i ask you qsn. Of course, im not sure the qsn is right or wrong, then i ask you. Whatever. Computing class, exam on week 2. Damn early. STOP WHINING, B. Sorry,i cant help it.

I’ve been planning and planning over and over again. Okay, whatever. Oh, even GREAT news, my DVDs that yean suppose to give it to me is stuck in the stupid immigration there. Perth immigration, its just my pathetic movies! Return it to me! GAWH.

Im just tired now. B is going through a pre-menopause. Just let her be. Maybe the only thing that can make her smile is him. How i wish he says, ‘Love you my dear’

Three words, Eight Letters. Say it & Im yours.

Love,
Bernie

P.s I’ll come often as i can, alright? Miss you besties who still visit though its dying.

8:05 AM

Friday, July 04, 2008

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Im back in msia & spore. Its been a week since i came back & i have met lots of my friends & relatives. But sad to say, not all. It was pretty busy the past few days. Well, i was able to meet Diann, Elaine, the girls, ruiling, tx. Met elrin, sean & nasri at causeway point randomnly. My schedule is quite packed. Haven meet my dearest poi, ah long & baoling’s lunch been pull back, zhen yang’s coffee bean haven treat, yean’s shogun meal not yet, xin an’s lunch haven settle, girls cousins meeting not set yet, meeting up with my aunts not arranged, shopping for Belinda & stationary not done, san’s present haven decide & there’s more,but my mind seems to be not functioning properly. && the most impt thing, i have only 2-3 days left for all the things undone. Seriously, i need a planner. A human planner or organiser. Perhaps give me 48 hours a day.
Finally, im lying on my bed, typing on my goldish lappy keyboard now. Im exhausted after coming back from the freaking causeway jam & after celebrating my b-bday with the girls. I can only say, im tired.
My bday, i woke up early in the morning, receiving lovely messages & wishes from my beloved friends & family. That really makes my day well. Since its my day, i love spending with my family. Maybe my horoscope is cancer, im more to the family type. So went lunch with 1B, 4B and mum at niniq. Ate my fav oreo cheese. I know its fattening, but no choice, i love it. Then catch up with aunty adeline & did a hairdo at the saloon. Dinner was at a non-pork which is halal restaurant. Uncles & Aunts came to celebrate with me. Yes, hongbaos! Maybe its a traditiom, they prefer red packets to presents. Haha. But i don’t mind, cos its $$$$. OMG. Haha Aunt May order a ‘thousand’ layers cake. Its freaking nice & i love it. I ate 3 pieces. I just cant help it. Haha. My adorable cousin brothers was there thanking me that i bought them the nougats from aus. They love it as much as they love me. Haha. Though its my bday, its simple & nice. Didn really have time with dad as he seems busy all day, but he owe me a present in macau. Haha. 3B & I was gossiping during the dinner. haha Didn really have time with her too as she’s like FOREVER busy.
Went back home, lie on bed & watch my fav hongkong drama. Maybe i pursue or prefer a simple life. No entertaining, no one bothering me, no one looking at me, no one spying & taking notice of every single thing i do. Its just my simple day. After 3 july ends, i was looking at the time, & i just said, okay, my bday is over. Not sad, just feel that, woah, my day just passed. Like any other day, its a time-passing-fast day.
The 2nd day of my 17 year, i went out to meet the girls & tx. Caught the movie HANCOCK. I can say, if you don’t watch it, you’re so so out from this world. I was pretty mad at them when they don’t allow me to pay for the sakae meal. They give me all the presents & did all the stuff for me, the only thing i can do it to treat them a meal, but they don’t allow me too. Arghhhh. OH MY & WHO RETURN ME THE $$$, IM GETTING MADDIER & MADDIER. ARGHHHHH. But look at their presents & the time they could used to sleep, study, rushing projects, they used it to celebrate with me. They are, i can say, the friends that are willing to help you & are always there for you. I am touched & honoured to have you girls as my friends. In future, no matter what, i do really hope we can still sit down together & ‘bitch’.

Ruiling, thanks for the clip & necklace, i will wear it. I know i look like the necklace face, but tell you what, the B clip looks more like BERNIE! Its alright you cant come today, im alright. I know you’re busy, but at the same time, i know you’re wishing me too. Thanks for the presents.

Tx,i will read the book. & tell you sth, i love the golden retriever. Im buying one if i can. Anyway why return me the $$? Its alright if i pay it right? But still, lucky you came or you cant see me! Haha. Once again, thanks for the book, i’ll read it asap & tell you abt it.

Joanne, thanks for the lovely message. Well, im nearly touched to tears, knowing you valued our friendship that much. Im looking forward to you coming perth to meet me. Ya know, im always there waiting & hoping someone will visit me. Thanks for the presents Nozomi, i;ll be like her, pursuing my dreams with optimism. Thanks jo.

Xifang, i prefer fang to chloe. Yup, i know i gain a little tiny tweeny of weight, but ya know, im still your Bernie. Though JC life is gonna be tough. Much more tougher than you think, i hope you can pull through & do us proud. You’re the only one among us taking A lvls, which prove how smart you are. So prove to people that xifang is the girl who’s smart, strong, confident & most of all, loving. You can do it, my girl. I’ll give you my best support.
p.s don’t be too obsessed with the sayang, im more like your sayang than him
p.p.s i’ll wait for your blue flower

Yuxuan, i’ve known you the longest compared to the other girls & you’re the one who know me deeply well. I wanna thank you for always being there for me when i need you. When i first land in spore, you’re the first in my mind to msg to. Maybe i didn mention before, but it seems like you’re my only spore friend who will call me from there. It seems like people in spore don’t wanna msg my msia or call me from spore often. But you call me sometimes when im in msia & you msg me when im in aus. Ya know, sometimes when im feeling a little down there, & don’t feel like blogging or talking to ppl, i will look at the msgs you sent me. It really makes me feel better. It makes me feel that there’s someone there still remember me, misses me, care abt me. & that person its you. Thanks my dearest girl. No one can replace you in my heart [sounds like couples saying to each other, haha, but you get what i meant right?] Life is hard for your course, so have more rest then have strength to fight for the upcoming assignments. Take care of yourself & I’ll always be here if you need me. Im always here.

Sanny, the girl who born a week later than me, the girl who’s cute, the girl who has the laughter i like to listen. Though im not here, i hope the laughter will continue to go on. Fashion design is a course where you have to keep updating, sort of like non-stop work. My parents are like doing it every now and then. Its not an easy job, esp when my parents are in their 40s and 50s. Dear sanny, has just started her 2 months plus course, & its driving her nuts soon. I hope she’ll pull through & at the same time, have fun learning. Maybe a little suggestion, buy magazines, fashion magazines when you need to design clothing & stuff. The future top fashion designer, im waiting for you!

Its pretty late now & a tiring day, im exhausted. But i still wanna watch the hongki drama. Too bad, im obsessed with it. Haha [yxuan, remember how we know each other? That’s the hongki drama, tell you abt it the nx time i see ya]

p.s great thanks to my friends that wishes me on my bday, regardless on friendster, facebook, phone, letter or whatsoever. thank you very much.

Presenting my sincerity & much love to the people who share the same compassion as me,
bernie

2:15 PM

Friday, June 20, 2008

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I hope you aware how much i value you as a friend,
and how much I have relied upon you in time past.

I misses you alot

If you love me for me,

my friend

7:13 AM

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

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My new love, strawberry smoothie

jannifer & bernie

before dressing up!

act cool

trying to act cool! haha =D

lolololololo

what happen to my eyes?

the vain girl!

retard bernie & yean

cutie eve!

yay!

hello!

ooooooo

3B says i look retard

peace!

eeeeeee

camwhoring in the car

jannifer, joy, ronny && me!

jannifer!

cheers!

fat bernie!

i love this pic!

joy!!

bernie, michelle & eve!

bernie, priscilla, rica, cindy!

eve, alex, bernie

harith!

sisters of the night! bernie & winky

num!

stephanas, harith!

nooch!

paul, the cute korean guy!

frw, the drunkard

sasyah!

ugly!

funny gang dancing!

monica, gary, paul!

3 girls!

took of our masks

paul!

drunkard frw!

paul & eve

michelle & num!

Finally i finish uploading the pics. It took me quite sometime, seriously! Well, my exams are coming & i spent my study time to post the pics. So friends, look carefully, alright? haha, kidding. On the ball day, eve, yean & me went to eve's place to dress ourselves up. We end up, rushing & keep camwhoring. haha. We simply love our masks. Paul & frw came to pick us after that & we headed the ball. It was so cold that night. Oh ya, i forgot, i spent a huge amount on my dress, shoes, hair & bla bla bla. God, dont dare to tell mum! haha. Its worth it though. We were busying taking pics when we're there. Aunty lend me her cam but she gave me the wrong memory card, which can only take 30+ pics! what a wasted! Lucky eve has a cam too, but the battery didn last long too. So so i missed taking pics with lots of them! Its alright, all the memories are in my mind. The best part of the ball is dancing. Everyone started to go to the dance floor. At first, it was quite awkward, as we dont know how to start. Slowly, everyone got high & keep dancing. I am seriously a bad dancer. Should go clubbing often to learn. LOL. Rather than that, we have our 'eeewwww' meal, drinking soft drinks & liquor, ppl smoking! Seriously, alot of ppl smoke in my school. Its sort of a trend. Drinking is normal, & nice. Just control yourself. There;s this girl winky who wore the same dress as me. omg. Everyone was looking at both of us. Its quite weird seeing another girl wear the same dress as me. We have the same taste! =P There;s a after ball party. I cant go! cos im underage, & i have to go home! so sad. The ball ended around 11.30 & all of them headed to have fun elsewhere. I think they played till the next morning. When i was back home, my legs were aching. I wore a 2-3 inches high heels walk & dance for like 4 hours? I cant stand it anymore. Slept straight away after that & went into my dreams...

Im going on hiatus this few days as you know, exams! Everyone at home is going on holidays. 1B, 3B, got the chance to go bangkok again. Its their 3rd /4th trip since my last trip! Why cant you guys wait for me?! I want to shop shop shop!. Well, i'll be back home on the 26th June! so excited! Counting down to 9 days!

Dont misses me too much, guys!

Love,
bernie

3:36 AM