Bernie's life

2009-05-23T07:50:00.000-07:00

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3 words, 16 letters, guess it & i'm yours.

2008-10-17T05:02:00.000-07:00

This sunday, im going cottesloe beach with the gang! yay! finally Bel can go, so we all can have fun! im so excited! cant wait for it. and Yes, i got the first 3 episodes of GG. damn happy. time to watch! be back soon.

P.s For goodnees sake, sweetkonek, dont you have anything to do? stop spamming ppl's blog. and for some reason you're coward, shut the hell up and go away. you have nothing that worth my time to deal with. Yes, im a bitch, least im better than you. ohhhh, i forgot, pathetic.

2008-10-12T08:46:00.000-07:00

In the face of true love, you never give up—even when the object of your affection is begging you to - Chuck Bass

Well, same old thing. Workload is still pilling up. I happen to go uwa today and found out its a little waste of time. Well, except for non-stop typing for 2 hours? The environment issues arent really the topic that i want for eco. Basically, nothing much. Plus yest night, i caught a movie on channel seven, Eurotrip. You guys might wanna watch it, watch till the all male nude beach, you will puke. Norm girls will go 'wow' right, i bet, no one wanna see. GROSS.
Im just so bored doing work that i have to crap stuff. I went to wiki and read everything abt GG. Like i said, im crazy and mad about them. The Non-Judging Breakfast Club is the best and my love of all for the show. xoxo
I cant wait for this term to end and hols will come. The Saturday Lunch Routine, My best family day and of course, lovely and comfy bed of mine. You guys wait, counting down to 9 weeks.

Its been so dead here. No one cares abt me. hahaha :D

Love,
Bernie

2008-10-10T08:05:00.000-07:00

Well, my blog seems so dead. Apparently, im so busy with school work, doing other stuff that i totally forgotten about Davie. Anyone knows Davie? I guess not alot. I was just viewing all my all entries when i found out that i don’t upload pictures v often. Maybe bcos bs takes a long time to upload all my lovely lovely pics. Mum has given me the cam, but im just so lazy to upload. Blame bs not me. Well, i’ve tried using lj too. But im still hesitating. Any opinions? I realise its 10/10 which is my sis bday. Happy bday, my love! I should be there with you to celebrate! I give you 1 present in advance first [you know you love me, xoxo, Gossip Girl], sexy right, my voice? Hahaha. I cant wait to watch GG. Just because my internet is v slow, doesn’t mean i cant watch. But someone save me! YES! Feng’s GG.

It sucks for the new term in Taylors. Esp with Patrick teaching me 2 Eng. All the while, im still getting the hang of eng. Its real hard for me. Language will so be out of my life if possible. Econs, been forced to take, if not uni life will be miserable too. Maths, Enright, cant he just give me a nicer attitude when i ask you qsn. Of course, im not sure the qsn is right or wrong, then i ask you. Whatever. Computing class, exam on week 2. Damn early. STOP WHINING, B. Sorry,i cant help it.

I’ve been planning and planning over and over again. Okay, whatever. Oh, even GREAT news, my DVDs that yean suppose to give it to me is stuck in the stupid immigration there. Perth immigration, its just my pathetic movies! Return it to me! GAWH.

Im just tired now. B is going through a pre-menopause. Just let her be. Maybe the only thing that can make her smile is him. How i wish he says, ‘Love you my dear’

Three words, Eight Letters. Say it & Im yours.

Love,
Bernie

P.s I’ll come often as i can, alright? Miss you besties who still visit though its dying.

2008-07-04T14:15:00.000-07:00

Im back in msia & spore. Its been a week since i came back & i have met lots of my friends & relatives. But sad to say, not all. It was pretty busy the past few days. Well, i was able to meet Diann, Elaine, the girls, ruiling, tx. Met elrin, sean & nasri at causeway point randomnly. My schedule is quite packed. Haven meet my dearest poi, ah long & baoling’s lunch been pull back, zhen yang’s coffee bean haven treat, yean’s shogun meal not yet, xin an’s lunch haven settle, girls cousins meeting not set yet, meeting up with my aunts not arranged, shopping for Belinda & stationary not done, san’s present haven decide & there’s more,but my mind seems to be not functioning properly. && the most impt thing, i have only 2-3 days left for all the things undone. Seriously, i need a planner. A human planner or organiser. Perhaps give me 48 hours a day.
Finally, im lying on my bed, typing on my goldish lappy keyboard now. Im exhausted after coming back from the freaking causeway jam & after celebrating my b-bday with the girls. I can only say, im tired.
My bday, i woke up early in the morning, receiving lovely messages & wishes from my beloved friends & family. That really makes my day well. Since its my day, i love spending with my family. Maybe my horoscope is cancer, im more to the family type. So went lunch with 1B, 4B and mum at niniq. Ate my fav oreo cheese. I know its fattening, but no choice, i love it. Then catch up with aunty adeline & did a hairdo at the saloon. Dinner was at a non-pork which is halal restaurant. Uncles & Aunts came to celebrate with me. Yes, hongbaos! Maybe its a traditiom, they prefer red packets to presents. Haha. But i don’t mind, cos its $$$$. OMG. Haha Aunt May order a ‘thousand’ layers cake. Its freaking nice & i love it. I ate 3 pieces. I just cant help it. Haha. My adorable cousin brothers was there thanking me that i bought them the nougats from aus. They love it as much as they love me. Haha. Though its my bday, its simple & nice. Didn really have time with dad as he seems busy all day, but he owe me a present in macau. Haha. 3B & I was gossiping during the dinner. haha Didn really have time with her too as she’s like FOREVER busy.
Went back home, lie on bed & watch my fav hongkong drama. Maybe i pursue or prefer a simple life. No entertaining, no one bothering me, no one looking at me, no one spying & taking notice of every single thing i do. Its just my simple day. After 3 july ends, i was looking at the time, & i just said, okay, my bday is over. Not sad, just feel that, woah, my day just passed. Like any other day, its a time-passing-fast day.
The 2nd day of my 17 year, i went out to meet the girls & tx. Caught the movie HANCOCK. I can say, if you don’t watch it, you’re so so out from this world. I was pretty mad at them when they don’t allow me to pay for the sakae meal. They give me all the presents & did all the stuff for me, the only thing i can do it to treat them a meal, but they don’t allow me too. Arghhhh. OH MY & WHO RETURN ME THE $$$, IM GETTING MADDIER & MADDIER. ARGHHHHH. But look at their presents & the time they could used to sleep, study, rushing projects, they used it to celebrate with me. They are, i can say, the friends that are willing to help you & are always there for you. I am touched & honoured to have you girls as my friends. In future, no matter what, i do really hope we can still sit down together & ‘bitch’.

Ruiling, thanks for the clip & necklace, i will wear it. I know i look like the necklace face, but tell you what, the B clip looks more like BERNIE! Its alright you cant come today, im alright. I know you’re busy, but at the same time, i know you’re wishing me too. Thanks for the presents.

Tx,i will read the book. & tell you sth, i love the golden retriever. Im buying one if i can. Anyway why return me the $$? Its alright if i pay it right? But still, lucky you came or you cant see me! Haha. Once again, thanks for the book, i’ll read it asap & tell you abt it.

Joanne, thanks for the lovely message. Well, im nearly touched to tears, knowing you valued our friendship that much. Im looking forward to you coming perth to meet me. Ya know, im always there waiting & hoping someone will visit me. Thanks for the presents Nozomi, i;ll be like her, pursuing my dreams with optimism. Thanks jo.

Xifang, i prefer fang to chloe. Yup, i know i gain a little tiny tweeny of weight, but ya know, im still your Bernie. Though JC life is gonna be tough. Much more tougher than you think, i hope you can pull through & do us proud. You’re the only one among us taking A lvls, which prove how smart you are. So prove to people that xifang is the girl who’s smart, strong, confident & most of all, loving. You can do it, my girl. I’ll give you my best support.
p.s don’t be too obsessed with the sayang, im more like your sayang than him
p.p.s i’ll wait for your blue flower

Yuxuan, i’ve known you the longest compared to the other girls & you’re the one who know me deeply well. I wanna thank you for always being there for me when i need you. When i first land in spore, you’re the first in my mind to msg to. Maybe i didn mention before, but it seems like you’re my only spore friend who will call me from there. It seems like people in spore don’t wanna msg my msia or call me from spore often. But you call me sometimes when im in msia & you msg me when im in aus. Ya know, sometimes when im feeling a little down there, & don’t feel like blogging or talking to ppl, i will look at the msgs you sent me. It really makes me feel better. It makes me feel that there’s someone there still remember me, misses me, care abt me. & that person its you. Thanks my dearest girl. No one can replace you in my heart [sounds like couples saying to each other, haha, but you get what i meant right?] Life is hard for your course, so have more rest then have strength to fight for the upcoming assignments. Take care of yourself & I’ll always be here if you need me. Im always here.

Sanny, the girl who born a week later than me, the girl who’s cute, the girl who has the laughter i like to listen. Though im not here, i hope the laughter will continue to go on. Fashion design is a course where you have to keep updating, sort of like non-stop work. My parents are like doing it every now and then. Its not an easy job, esp when my parents are in their 40s and 50s. Dear sanny, has just started her 2 months plus course, & its driving her nuts soon. I hope she’ll pull through & at the same time, have fun learning. Maybe a little suggestion, buy magazines, fashion magazines when you need to design clothing & stuff. The future top fashion designer, im waiting for you!

Its pretty late now & a tiring day, im exhausted. But i still wanna watch the hongki drama. Too bad, im obsessed with it. Haha [yxuan, remember how we know each other? That’s the hongki drama, tell you abt it the nx time i see ya]

p.s great thanks to my friends that wishes me on my bday, regardless on friendster, facebook, phone, letter or whatsoever. thank you very much.

Presenting my sincerity & much love to the people who share the same compassion as me,
bernie

2008-06-20T07:13:00.000-07:00

I hope you aware how much i value you as a friend,
and how much I have relied upon you in time past.

I misses you alot

If you love me for me,

my friend

2008-06-17T03:36:00.000-07:00

My new love, strawberry smoothie

jannifer & bernie
before dressing up!

act cool

trying to act cool! haha =D

lolololololo

what happen to my eyes?

the vain girl!
retard bernie & yean
cutie eve!
yay!
hello!

ooooooo
3B says i look retard
peace!
eeeeeee
camwhoring in the car

jannifer, joy, ronny && me!

jannifer!

cheers!
fat bernie!

i love this pic!
joy!!

bernie, michelle & eve!

bernie, priscilla, rica, cindy!
eve, alex, bernie
harith!

sisters of the night! bernie & winky

num!
stephanas, harith!
nooch!
paul, the cute korean guy!
frw, the drunkard

sasyah!
ugly!

funny gang dancing!
monica, gary, paul!
3 girls!
took of our masks

paul!
drunkard frw!

paul & eve
michelle & num!

Finally i finish uploading the pics. It took me quite sometime, seriously! Well, my exams are coming & i spent my study time to post the pics. So friends, look carefully, alright? haha, kidding. On the ball day, eve, yean & me went to eve's place to dress ourselves up. We end up, rushing & keep camwhoring. haha. We simply love our masks. Paul & frw came to pick us after that & we headed the ball. It was so cold that night. Oh ya, i forgot, i spent a huge amount on my dress, shoes, hair & bla bla bla. God, dont dare to tell mum! haha. Its worth it though. We were busying taking pics when we're there. Aunty lend me her cam but she gave me the wrong memory card, which can only take 30+ pics! what a wasted! Lucky eve has a cam too, but the battery didn last long too. So so i missed taking pics with lots of them! Its alright, all the memories are in my mind. The best part of the ball is dancing. Everyone started to go to the dance floor. At first, it was quite awkward, as we dont know how to start. Slowly, everyone got high & keep dancing. I am seriously a bad dancer. Should go clubbing often to learn. LOL. Rather than that, we have our 'eeewwww' meal, drinking soft drinks & liquor, ppl smoking! Seriously, alot of ppl smoke in my school. Its sort of a trend. Drinking is normal, & nice. Just control yourself. There;s this girl winky who wore the same dress as me. omg. Everyone was looking at both of us. Its quite weird seeing another girl wear the same dress as me. We have the same taste! =P There;s a after ball party. I cant go! cos im underage, & i have to go home! so sad. The ball ended around 11.30 & all of them headed to have fun elsewhere. I think they played till the next morning. When i was back home, my legs were aching. I wore a 2-3 inches high heels walk & dance for like 4 hours? I cant stand it anymore. Slept straight away after that & went into my dreams...

Im going on hiatus this few days as you know, exams! Everyone at home is going on holidays. 1B, 3B, got the chance to go bangkok again. Its their 3rd /4th trip since my last trip! Why cant you guys wait for me?! I want to shop shop shop!. Well, i'll be back home on the 26th June! so excited! Counting down to 9 days!

Dont misses me too much, guys!

Love,
bernie

2008-06-15T09:25:00.000-07:00

Its dumb blogging the second time of the day with only less than an hour difference time. Okay, if im in a pretty bad mood, i'll go quizzez, & i got this one which is true. Believing and true.

What type of heart you have?

Bernie has a careful heart!

You take your time and do not fall in love easily.You give 50% in a relationship, and expect 50% in return.You like to handle your problems directly and immediately. You are alright with not seeing him/her so often. you expect the person to change for you.You measure your desire to whomever you love by the amount of desire he shows you.You fall out of love easily.

2008-06-15T08:21:00.000-07:00

I realize that whenever i feel down, then i will think of blogging. My ball has ended, & i can say it was really fun. Freaking fun. From taking pics to gossiping to dancing & liqour. Sometimes i really hate blogger, i tried to post the pics, but it takes so long to upload. & i wanna upload 60 plus pics. Its gonna take me 24 hours i guess. Maybe when im feeling better and less crappy, i will do that.
My final exams are around the corner and i haven start studying. Maybe i become lazier when i come here? or because of all the fattening food i ate here which cause me to be fatter & lazier? I dont know. People always think that coming to Aust to study is easy, what life is relaxing, not so stress. Sometimes i wish those ppl dont give such bullshit. You never been here before, so dont give comments. Im not saying its very stressed here. Coming here has to handle the new environment plus studies. I've been here for like 2 months, you can say i have already adapted to the life here, and you can say i cant too. I really find abit tough to manage things well. Well, i really dont know too. Sometimes, how i wish, i am some sort of statue or a vegetable or maybe a sleeping beauty, jsut lie in bed, dream of those fairytales of lovely dreams. But wake up, bernie. Its pointless. I dont know I dont know. Looking around facebook, suddenly gives me a feeling or i dont know again. I feel like going home. I feel like finding my friends way back there. Friends here are great, but not as genuine as my oldie friends. Sometimes, im not sure whether to trust them or not. After all, we known each other for 2 months only. How i wish i am some nerd who spend most of my time on books or research or figure out come new math formula or science solution, then i wouldnt have to be the normal kids to go around talking to ppl, & sometimes have to fake smiles at ppl, even you dont really like them. Thats a way of friendliness or whatsoever. Just hope that im not me now. Just give me a few mins of not me, then i'll come back to the me again. Okay, im crapping AGAIN. whatever, jsut feel pissed at dont know who. Maybe me. & i realize i uses alot of sometimes. Unhappy? dont read that word.

Specifically for elaine, my dear buddy, i know i haven update my life here with you. Maybe give me another week or when im back in jb, i really misses you. I really have lots to say. Its not words or typing in emails can explain. I give you a call asap when i landed, alright? love you, girl. Dont be mad at me!

To friends that are concerned about me too, sorry if i didn reply you in msn, or i didn call you in msn. The reason why i online is to ask school work and stuff. I text you guys when im back, okay?! sorry & thank you.

I miss the 4 girls too! Update me with your life.

I'll show the ball pics asap.

bernie

2008-05-31T06:54:00.000-07:00

You're there when we've been happy
You call if we've been sick
You're not afraid when we're in need to give our butts a kick!

You've listened to our worries
sometimes you let us cry.
but you're always models laugh, maybe (?)
Before we say goodbye.

We've share each other sorrow
We've known each others pain
We've told each other secrets
That we wont repeat again

You've councelled us through anguish
when we thought we'd lose it all
You've picked us up to dust off when we took a fall

And through this year of trials
although we've never met enough
we've formed a band of relationship
that we'll soon not forget

So we ask, our dearest friend
How could we not LOVE you?
When everything you are to us is what you say & do.

I love you guys.

bernie

2008-05-13T02:36:00.000-07:00

I was listening to First Love in imeem, when something caught my attention. I seriously agree with it. Though somehow its abit vague. Let's check out.

NO GIRLS DESERVE THIS

Girl: Hey
Boy: What?
Girl: I really like you. And I...Ithink I'm falling in love with you.
Boy: Ok...
Girl: What do you mean "ok"?
Boy: I don't like you like that...
Girl: Why not?
Boy: I can't tell you... maybe anothertime ...

From then on, the girl kept asking theboy "Why not?" whenever she saw him,
and he kept answering the same answer of "I'll tell you later."

Finally the girl got fed up.

Girl: I'm tired of this! Tell me whyyou don't like me!
Boy: Do you really wanna know why ?
Girl: Yes!
Boy: It's because you're uglier than freak! What's the point of going out with someone when they're not pretty?!

(The nerve!! soo superficial!!)
Gi rl: But... I...

Boy: Just shut up and leave me alone!

The boy leaves and the girl is sittingthere alone, crying her heart out.

Then her cell phone rings.
Girl: Hello?
Mom: Sweetheart? I want you to gohome, ok? I'll be home from work in a few hours.
Girl: Alright Mom.
Mom: I love you.
Girl: I love you too, Mom.
Mom: Bye Bye.
Girl: Bye

The girl heads home and once she got there, she went in the bathroom and looked at herself in the mirror.

Girl: I'm not pretty enough...

She set to work, knowing fully well what she was going to do.
2hourslater, her Mom came home andheard the bath water running.
She went upstairs to find the hallway floodedso she knocked on the door.

Mom: Honey? Are you alright?

She opened the door and was shocked at the site. The bath was overflowing onto the floor, and the water wastinted red. She walked over to seewhat was inside and screamed. There,her little girl was lying with cutsall over her face and wrists. Her Mombacked away and was going to run tocall the police when something caughther eye. On the mirror were thesewords written in blood:

"Am I pretty enough now?"

No one deserves to be told that by someone they love. A person's appearance doesn't count.What counts is their heart inside of them and their personality. No one wants to betold they're not good enough...

That;s the whole story. Guys, dont you bully girls like this. Girls' heart are sensitive. Even they dont express it out sometimes, they do mind stuff.

p.s Bernie is a Blue Belle

love,
bernie

2008-05-08T07:13:00.000-07:00

When you feel good, you pass it on. It can produce a ripple of goodwill that spreads and grows. We call it the well of prosperity. Help fill the well with a positive message at thewellofpositively.com

[i'll apologise for any broken, spelling errors or funny language, ya know what's that? Its BERNIE'S lang, thanks.]

I realise how 'often' i wish ppl's birthday on my blog. But now i'll remember & try to! Anyway Happy birthday, yuxuan! Im really sorry that i cant celebrate with you on your very special day. Maybe you wanna fly here to visit me? haha. I hope you spend your day well, have fun. I've heard that fang, jo & san went all the way down to your house to celebrate with you. Well, im touched too. I hope they do that to me! [haha, kidding!] But i know you were happy on your special day, i just wanna wish you again, okay? HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUXUAN! I miss you!

&& I wanna tell you an emotional thing, i really wanna thank you for whatever things you did to me or for me. Ya, though i dont mention, but i really really wanna thank you. From the day when we start talking abt hong kong drama serials to getting closer in class, to sitting nx to each other, to watch movie together, to form a clique when we can laugh ourselves out loud. Cos im here, you might or cant share your stuff with me, but i just wanna say, whenever you feel like you need someone, i'll be here. Just email me or sth [dont email the msn email, i'll tell you another day!] Once again, take care & do your best in design, okay? Love!

Fang, san, jo, once again, i wanna thanks the 3 of you to come to the airport to send me off. Although, i dont really mention it out or sth, i hope you guys know that deep in my heart, i really appreciate it. Though, we've been closed since sec3 or 4 only, we;re still friends & the friendship we're gonna treasure together. Maybe in few years time, you all are gonna forget me, but i tell you, i wont. Just remember, take care in spore! i'll visit you all whenever i can.

Tingxi, thanks for coming to the airport. Seriously i thought you cant or wont. But thanks, im really touched. Remember what i tell you, take care & do well in school. Whenever you feel stressed, think of me here, who;s more pressurized than you, then MAYBE, you'll feel better!

Ruiling, i know you wanna come, but you cant. Its okay & alright. I know that you're willing to come, already makes me happy. After lots of things happen, i have only one thing to say, ' We;re friends. Friends that will talk to each other whenever we have problem, whenever you need someone. Whenever i need someone, i;ll find you, If i have problems, i;ll find you. I hope you feel the same. Like what i say, maybe in few years time, we;re gonna forget each other, but i will not forget the times we once spent together. Take care, buddy!

ELAINE!!

I've receive your mail. But for the time being, i dont have time to reply you, as i have 3 tests coming up next week. I have to score well in order to prove to everyone i can do it! haha. But now i jsut summarise what i wanna tell you, & return your mail asap? Yup, i will & remember what you said. & im doing & trying to. I will not be the one who sulks alone. Im currently staying with a clique. Though, its all msians & sporean, i will continue to do what im doing & i'll stay cheerful, okay? No worries. I dont know whether you're doing well or not, but jsut stay cheerful too? If not, im gonna cry back & look for you! I return your mail soon, love.

POI POI

Are you alright? Still busy with touch Rugby? I saw your pm in msn, playing hard & tough? Well, no matter what, take care of yourself, dont injure yourself. Its really a tough game though. Having a friend i know since 6 years old & still contacting now, its a very valuable friendship. I dont know if you still remember, you text me a long msg telling me how you feel abt our friendship. I was really shocked of what you said, & touched. Even though, my phone msg memory keep going full, but i never ever think of deleting your msg. Once in a while, i;ll still look at it & smile at myself. I dont know why, but i just like reading it. & I wanna say, in the airport, it was hard to bear apart with you. I really hope that im not leaving too so i wont have to miss all of you. Im gonna miss the times when we still can hang out together to have lunch, or stay at one of our houses to bitch abt ppl. haha. Im just hoping you're doing well. Anything, mail me too? Im so worried abt you la, compared to others, i dont know too. haha. LOVE!!

DIANN!

omg! someone's studying in my fav course in SP. Since i come here, i haven really talk to you, no matter its msn or friendster. Maybe you're busy, maybe im busy, but we just haven chat. I've known you for 9-10 years. Though in the middle, we wasnt that close, but arent we getting better now? Since sec 3, we were in same stream, have tuition together, going to each other places several times a week. That's when we spend time together, talking & do silly stuff. If im not here now, both of us are even studying together in sp. We stay so near, our parents are also friends. I cant think of a way to run away from you? haha. I remember you tell me sth when you were staying in spore. You tell me stuff that makes me hesitated to come here. Though what you said was right & did happen, i thinks its when we grow up & learn. Its indeed hard to pass through, but im still getting used to it. I just wanna say, thanks for telling me before hand as its true. I've remember what you said over the phone. I hope you're alright too. Are you still staying in spore? I've heard from my sis that that day, all of them went to your house to eat dinner together. Some funny stuff like your dad jumps into the pond, i also know. I hope you have fun. Feeling not so pressurize compared to sajc? Let me know, okay? Update me with your life! Misses!

I have pictures to show when i went out with Yin, a lovely girl which i enjoys to go out with here. She;s friendly, kind & whichever good values can be used on her! I'll show it to you guys soon. I have like tons of homework waiting for me, revision notes staring at me, but i just wanna express what i wanna say. I have lots of words to tell to everyone too. But i just dont have the time. But trust me, if you ever tell me sth, of wish me or blessed me, or even jsut think abt me, i know, i appreciate it & thank you for it. If really there;s, sth i cant do for you, email me, my friend! I;ll miss all you guys out there. I jsut hope you all dont forget me!

p.s to the friend i once spilled all the beans out to, to the one i once hope you're my best friend, sorry for not replying you after the things you gave me, my bad, & i know it. But, i like it. Seriously & Sincerely, i treat you as my friend. Even now, i do. I miss my friend.

bernie

2008-05-03T02:54:00.000-07:00

I've been here for 2 weeks plus. & I can say im alright now. Im fine. Im great. I know what to do & what not to do. Know when to behave myself & not [haha]. I know people arnd me are concern abt me. Thanks. Many thanks.

[i reply the tag here]
Elrin, i receive your msg from msn. Thanks girl!
Ailin, I will stay strong! :D Thanks
Chloe, i miss you too!
Ruiling: i will work hard, study & do my best!
Zhen Kang, i miss 4e3 too. At least i get to see you all everyday. i'll work hard!
Yuting thanks for missing me. I do too!
Sing yee: Thanks for your lovely comments & advice. Pardon me, which sing yee are you?
Miao hui, I'll take care of myself. No worries. Thanks girl! :D
Kim Keat, I'll go ping pong here & strive for my best! :D
FAKE Bernie, sorry for not replying your msgs, im doing fine. Thanks & i miss you :(

P.S 3B, i have no time to reply. Btw, i got your lame msgs from dad's no. haha. ya, i will try not to miss you guys! Loves & misses*

Wanna know how's my life in Perth now? Be prepared to read!

The story starts with a girl name Bernie. She has a guy name & sometimes in school, teachers will call out the name & look at the boys' crowd. Feel sad for her. But she dont mind, she will go 'Yup!' Then the teacher will go ' oh, this is bernie.' Bernie is living in a cosy house which is only 15 mins away from school. She's the luckiest compared to other students as they have to travel an hour to reach home. In this house, there's a lovely couple, uncle teoh & aunt gin. They do all the washing & cooking in the house. Their job is to make sure im safe & care abt me. Their son, Ken, pure australian is a nice boy but doesnt talk much. Maybe he's shy or maybe he doenst like to talk to strangers. First day at home, Bernie introduced to himself first, he goes, 'hi' too. Funny & awkward. haha. Ken brought bernie to UWA one day too. He teaches her how to go there. Lucky they manage to talk abit. Bernie has a japanese guy as a housemate. Cute but wont talk too. Believe bernie, she hasnt talk to him since day 1. He's a great eater & will steal my food [kidding]. David, from china, is bernie another weird housemate. Wont talk to her too. Since day 1, she manage to say hi only. He's an owl too. Go northbridge or clubbing everynight, smoking. Bad bad bad. Lastly, china girl, Rita, a lovely girl who brings bernie around, teach her how to take buses & remember routes, bernie chaperon to school everyday, & a friend to laugh together. That;s how boring bernie can say.

Since it's getting cold now, bernie gets hungry very easily, which is bad. She have spend lots of money & tibits. & the stuff here are ex! BUT bernie has to slim down asap too. WHY?

BECAUSE SHE HAS A UPCOMING BALL! 6TH JUNE. Anyone wanna know the theme?
MASQUERADE! [SCREAM, BEV!] Bernie gets to go back to the old english & venice days. She gets to wear a mask & put on a stunning dress to a ball. && she'll be in a limousine. How cool is it? Yup yup, so she has to slim down. But bernie doesnt know if she required a man chaperon to attend the ball. If she does, then she needs to go & ask ppl, ' Will you be my lord tonight?' God! She;s not going to do that. Well, let's see first. Changes might be made.

Bernie's gotta end here as she's preparing to have dinner with my guardian, rita & the bunch of weird guys. She's coming back soon!

P.P.S. Bernie is feeling lovely today! :D

bernie

2008-04-23T05:48:00.000-07:00

Life isnt that simple

I have the sudden urge to blog again today. I realise i have wonderful friends around me. It just takes time for me to realise. I do cherish you guys & i can say i really miss all of you too. From friends that i knew since young, to the ones i made in secondary school or even outside school, Thanks to those who really rmb me, miss me, care abt me. I love you guys.

bernie

2008-04-23T01:48:00.000-07:00

Finally i have the mood to blog. I've been here for more than a week but school only started for 3 days. & now, i dont feel like going. I have 5 units a day. Totally no rest time, plus im taking two new subjects. Its not that i dont wanna study or go to school, i want, seriously, Just suddenly feel so tired & empty. When my sisters & friends send me at the airport, i was really alright. At least quite okay. But now, im not. I dont know what to do. I have lots of stuff to handle a day. School starts 8 & end at 3. Come home gotta think what to eat for lunch, as school canteen's food is too expensive. I cant eat too heavy as dinner will be quite early. If i dont eat alot at dinner, uncle & auntie (landlord & landlady) will think that i dont like their food. I have laundry to do, clean my room, fold my clothes. All things that i nv do before, i have to do. In school, its not like spore secondary or college. Now in taylors, they change their curriculum like university. You cant find a person that have same exact class at you. All diff class & subjects. I get into class, i see all new faces. Im in the accelerated program which means im a new student & i dont know ppl too. Like in accounting class, im the only one that have nv ever touch accounting before.There's arnd 20 in the class, so see, im the last. I can understand a little. But i cant catch up with them. Then in order to do that, i have to spend extra time. I indeed have time. But its full. Im taking 2 maths units this term. One is easier, i learn before in AMaths. The other is Further Maths, which i nv touch before & worse, the teacher that tteach me DOESNT know how to teach, The entire class doesnt understand what he's talking abt. See, then i have to take extra time to go read out & solve myself. English is not as simple as spore. I have Research to do. Research abt my courses. Have to surf the net, do this do that & bla bla bla. Though i meet friends in school like from all other countries, not one can be counted a close one. Unlike spore college or murdoch college, you dont have a class where everyone will still be together & hang arnd. I walk arnd the school & all i can see is strangers and teachers. In taylors, its a college for international students, so no local [australian] will study here. Therefore, ppl from China, Hongkong,Japan,Korea, Brunei, Vietnam, Spore, Msia, Brazil, Arab ppl & more will be hanging arnd. So its no diff from studying in a asia country.
At home when i feel like talking to ppl, i only have my housemate, rita. She's a nice girl which will bring me arnd school, city & places that girls like to go. At least there's someone at home i will feel comfortable with. Talking to uncle & aunty is nice too. They will care abt me. Ask me how's school today & stuff. Which makes me feel like im at home. But I still miss my home. Home in JB. I miss daddy, mummy, jie jie, bev & beck, I miss my room, i miss my bed. I miss my laughther I miss my friends. I miss times where we hang out together laugh, go crazy, take pictures, speak heart to heart. I just miss my place. Its only been 1 weeks plus & i miss home. I have to stay here for another 3 years 7 months plus. Just help me, someone.
Though how hard i keep reminding myself not to do that, i'll will still feel sad for a minute, let me miss everyone for a second. After that, i gotta tell myself, its time to study, motivate myself, dont disappoint those who look highly in me.
Its alright, i know what to do, sometimes just give me a few moments of thinking what i cherish the most.

P.S bev or bon, Dont you ever tell mum or dad. I dont wanna them to know.

p.p.s Dad, mum, jie, bev, boy! i miss all of you...
bernie

2008-04-14T21:02:00.000-07:00

SQ 225, Terminal 3 Leaving on 15th night/16th midnight

Bye everyone! Im leaving Home!

Bernie

2008-04-13T07:11:00.001-07:00

Dont make plans, make options

Hey guys! Im confirm leaving on tuesday night. My visa & everything are done. I've started packing my stuff too. Well, im entitled to 40kg which means i got to bring ALOT of things there! Mummy has been helping me pack this few days. Both of us are going mad soon to think what things we left! Haha. Mummy really doesnt want me to go. She'll misses me alot, i guess? Haha. I will miss you, mum! Dont worry! =D Daddy & Mummy are accompaning me there too. Lucky? They going to Burswood for? CASINO. haha. I'll be taking SIA & i cant online check-in now to know whether which terminal. But most prob will be terminal 2 or 3? Idk! My home-stay! Its a chinese family. A mother & son staying together in a 5 rooms + 2 bathrooms house. & there's gonna be me inside in a few days. Internet access is available[thank god]. But laundry? I gotta do myself. Well, i guess im gonna miss my maid too. The landlady most prob will be sporean, msian or maybe hongkki. The son is 1 year older than me! His name is ken, that's what i know. Hope they are nice ppl so my life there wont be so miserable.

Before the date when im leaving is coming soon, i was really excited. But now as days passed by, & im leaving in 2 days time, i cant bear to leave. My family especially, my relatives, friends, & whoever i meet. I have a farewell party yest. It was fun. Wasnt really that emotional. Certain aunts spend time talking to me, telling me this & that, to take care of myself & stuff. Though we dont see each other often, the kinship is still there. They are all concerned abt me, care abt me. Which makes me wanna cry. I receive red packets from them, little gifts, letters from my little cousins! They are really cute. & i love them. I wont forget them. Dad's friends came to wish me too. Telling me things that i should be careful & be caution. Well, at first it was quite awkward. But it was really alright after that. We hang out like we're little kids. Talk stuff & they even joke i'll be back with a XL size. Omg. How evil, they are! Haha.

Past few days, ive been quite moody too. But there's friends to cheer me up. Thanks guys! I wont forget you all! I'll be meeting yx, rl& tx in spore tmr. Anything can contact or find me in spore.

Love,
bernie

2008-03-22T06:36:00.000-07:00

Well, im officially back from china & perth. Like what chloe said, i've not updated anything yet, cos im busy dealing with my further studies. I had a hard time choosing between aus & poly. Recently, i receive a call from sp that i got into Business Admin, which is my fav course. After considering, i've decided to go aus. Sorry for those that wanted me to stay in spore. Like what diann says, she will give me her opinions, but decision is still with me. (sorry girl, i forgot to reply you) I'll be leaving by mid-april as im going to the fast track studies in taylors college. Its only 8 months then i finish my foundation year. guys, give me energy to work extra extravhard for this period so i can get into the best uni!
There's still alot of paperwork need to be done, my visa to be approve & even worse, a full body check-up. After all, then im confirm going. I'll be home-staying cos im under 18. I get to choose what kind of family i want to stay with. Asian chinese? Australians? Indians? Oh my, i haven make up my mind. Studying in Aus has always been one of my dreams. Now its fulfilled, suddenly i have a feeling whether i make a right choice. But no matter what, im gonna do my best there & learn to live by myself. I shall not regret. Before this, my parents have been thinking & deciding, & they didn even bother to discuss with me sometimes. They wont ask you. They just keep telling you all the disadvantages & probs you will faced there. Hello?! Im not even there. Okay, even i know you're saying to make me fully-prepared, but the tone. I jsut cant stand it sometimes. Well well well, forget abt that. Just hope everything will still be successful even though im not in jb.

China trip was bored. Other than buying some bags for myself, i have to accompany my mom to go around & look at all those goods. Ppl there, will start to say ' Oh, Mrs Kok, long time no see, come in & have a look at our goods! There's alot of new stuff. Come in, nvm, jsut come in!' Or ' Pretty girl, come come.' (of course, all in cantonese). Luckily, im able to listen. (at least some). Night time, we always have to go to factory, which is so so bored. I have to stay there for like 2-3 hours, doing nothing. No, at least iPod can keeep me accompany. But there's nth else. Maybe choosing colours of the clothing is also my job. I managed to not fall asleep there every night. Lucky me. During meal times, my mum & her friend & business partners over there, will order alot of dishes! By looking at my size, they will keep asking me to eat. Im already full, but they still love to stuff food in my mouth. I know im fat, but not as in i can eat alot. Basically, my job is to nod my head if the design is nice, & shake if not & even worse, a food rubbish bin where you can jsut throw anything you like in there. Macdonalds there is diff. There's this grilled chicken burger, which i guess spore & msia do not have, is so so delicious. Maybe im goin try the pork burger in hk the nx time. &&& I love hong kong airport! There's everything there that i love. Ajisen Ramen, hk gossip magazines, hk disneyland shop & more more more! We fly from spore to hk & then take a ferry to china. So apparently, we travel, by air, sea & land to reach. Great experience, huh?

What can i say abt perth trip?! Its not bored & its not so so fun too. Ppl like junxiang, lishan & evon keep asking me to go melb to study. I cant make decision now actually. I'll go to perth for my year 12, foundation year first, then i decide which uni to go! UWA will be my first choice for now. While i was there, jasmain accompany me 24 hours everyday for the 6 days. I really want to thank her. Been bothering her to buy this & buy that. We travel from the airport, to city, to subiago/subiaco,to mandarah,& to fremantle too! The fish & chips there is really nice. Crispy outside & smooth inside. Delicious! Very big serving! That's why the ang mohs are slightly bigger in size. What can i say abt the ppl there?! I dont really like their accent, mixture of their own accent & british, which sounds funny to me. The first day i landed, i cant even understand what they're trying to say. I guess when school re-opens, i need to strain my ears to listen to what my lecturer says! However, the ppl there are really friendly. They are courteous, kind & not so racise, as compared to other places in aus. For eg, i only wanna buy a pair of earring which cost AUS$3 only, they will still say hi to you when you pay or sometimes ask how's your day or how you're doing. Can you find this kind of service in msia or spore? I bet attack & milk do not provide too. We went crabbing too in mandarah, its out of perth, but still in western aus. Jasmain friend, june brought us there. She really looks like elvin ng, main! We went with a church group as an outing. It was my first time crabbing. Its so cold there as its a night! & i forgot to bring my jacket. We caught lots of crabs! But there's rules there that we cant catch crab, which its diameter less than 12.5cm. Sad to say. There's this girl , whom her mum organised everthing & bring all the equipments. She was sitting there doing nothing but just eat. When there's a crab coming & its near where i stand, obviously i have to catch right?! But when i thought i already catch it, i missed! Luckily, june was there to help me & she caught it! That girl, who was there, keep staring at me, as if she's blaming me for not catching! I gave her the 'what-do-you-wanna-me-do look & walk away. When i was near her, she says ' OH, BERNIE, YOU'RE NOT DOING A GOOD JOB!' Bernie thinking "HELLO, its my FIRST time crabbing & do i look like im very good at it. Im still learning & getting a 'hang' of it! Since you're so smart, why dont you go, rather than sitting there like a tai tai waiting for us to catch the crab for you. Tedious woman!' Okay, that's what i think & i didn manage to say that. Im the youngest over there & a tourist. I have no rights. & Instead of that, i jsut fake a smile & go ' YA YA YA'. She jsut smirk & look away! OMG. Should i hate this woman & hope i wont wanna see her again. Too bad, she's studying in UWA. After that, main & I was so tired that we go around a corner ourselves to hide away from the wind & chit-chat. We really have a long talk. From that i managed to get to know her better. The best place in perth is harbour town. All the cheap cheap & nice nice clothes! That place is so-called the Reject town? All the branded outlets out there will reject all the things to harbour town. Though the things are rejected & slightly not the in-fashion now, but there are still clothes that can be wear. I cant believe my parents open boutique shops & i still have to buy. No choice, too cheap! & i feel skinny over there! Why why? Cos size like me, have to wear M or L in spore & msia. But there, i wear XS! God, i certainly love there! Now, my new love, gloria jean's! Coffee Coffee Coffee! But i have no choice too. No starbucks, No coffee bean! No 7-eleven, No Watsons too. Perth is just funny! Oh ya, i went KTV with main's friends too! Oh god, we sang from 10 to 4 in the morning. & jasmain have hockey training nx morning around 10. She was quite pissed with them as they smoke & keep drinking. She was like ' Hey, there's a guest here, cant you guys behave a little?!' Okay, i know im the ONLY one underage. So everyone was like drinking, except me. Jasmain was protecting me when one of her friends was recommending me to drink the black label. haha. I can drink, okay? Just that i have to act as if i cant. 17 year old girl drinking seems not 'nice' when all of them are like 21, 22? haha. Finally i feel young over there. I stayed in Jasmain's house where there's another 3 roommates. All guys! Wow, aunty allows main to stay there. I bet my mum wouldnt allow. Thames, Lay & Mervyn. The 3 musketeers? All from Murdoch college. But now 2 in uwa, 1 in curtin. Well, they're all rich guys! Thames, owns the house(landed property). Thai mixed British blood. Family owns resort & gun-shooting centre in phuket. Lay, pure indo, not sure abt the family! haha. But he's the friendliest among them. Will keep talking to me so i wont feel so bored & alone. Mervyn, the shy guys, pure sporean. Just came back from NS. My whole trip there, he only managed to ask me, 'You wanna watch?' & pass me the remote control and 'How much you get for your 'O' lvl?' God, funny guy! As if i will eat you. There's more friends i made over there. Too many to write. But i know they have one thing in common, RICH & ENGLISH-SPEAKING! Haha. Basically, it was okay there. Looking forward to go there & study! Lastly i wanna thanks Jasmain. Though you're not going to read this, you've been a wonderful tour guide. Thanks for all the meals you treat me & bubble teas! I didn even manage to treat you! Maybe nx time when im there! Hope to see you, love!

i'll keep it updated of the upcoming things like whehter my visa appoved or im DEAD!
p.s its a really long post!

bernie

2008-03-12T15:07:00.000-07:00

Guess what? im in changi airport now. & Im leaving for china soon. See ya when im back! Bye guys!

bernie

2008-03-11T05:35:00.000-07:00

Please tell me my font is not pink?! How come my blog appears so different in diff com! Sorry Davie i haven update anything. I gotta pack my bag tonight! & dinner with Elaine, Poi tmr in TGIF. Back soon! I have lots to say!

Bernie

2008-02-28T09:00:00.000-08:00

Im leaving in less than 8 hours. Will be updating soon & return the msgs!

Bye Guys!
Bye Davie!

2008-02-24T06:12:00.001-08:00

I need help! I just found out that my blog's font is FUNNY! What happen? My com is using the new explorer which shows all font the same. So i cant see my real font. Please tell me that my font sucks or its really ugly. thanks!

2008-02-22T03:50:00.000-08:00

A man with charm is an entertaining thing, and a man with looks, of course, a sight to behold, but a man with honour - ah, he is the one, to which the young ladies would flock.

p.s im not in love

aus trip postpone to 29th feb. will be updating again! sorry for not catching up with anyone.
see you guys soon!

2008-02-14T18:12:00.000-08:00

My personal album on the phuket trip!

Our first meal in phuket
patong beach!
fat! cheez
banana boat!
daddy & me

ah meng, our tour guide & bestie friend
mk restaurant
hungry us! mummy & me acting cool?!
peace
he's playing psp!
ah go go !!
heading to karon beach! the guy bev found & says its handsome!
he looks like a sporean or taiwanese
this time dad sit with us, the great banana boat

capsized!playing around in the hotel's pool
learing how to shoot
there i am, the professional shooter
i am 007, license to kill!
fantasea, a tourist attraction that you must go!
does it look like national treasure 2?
mum wanna eat ham!
foodie!
the dining place which consists of 100 plus tables
there's 4 sets of this foodJumbo!
the cute toilet

Happy CNY to everyone. I spend the first day in jb with my beloved relatives. As usual, the lion dance & dragon dance come to our house & perform. Their really improving over the years! The second day, our whole family went phuket for our hols. Normally we dont go out as a family. Finally there;s a chance. The trip was superb & wonderful. We got tanned. Im dark now. Stop saying im fair. haha. Anyway i love the life there. Relaxing & just have fun. What my dad says. you wont have phone calls bothering you, which is true! When you're there, you get to see the caucasians everywhere. Well, since they're so handsome, why dont you just look more?! Maybe can consider to go there for honeymoon? We went to the patong beach, the famous beach in phuket. There's lots of TOPLESS women walking around. What should i say? Mostly those who were topless are olddie. Young with perfect body shape wont show. Just in their bikini! Woohoo! Guys who went there will have bleeding nose. We went to their night life there too. The famous AGO AGO! which means the ah gua there. God! Some of them are really woman! They looks so perfect. Maybe prettier than any woman. The ang mohs really love going there to find ah guas. That's why more man in thailand wanna be women. I cant imagine a guy can hug a person who once has the same gender as him. Goosebumps! Basically, its was fun there. Eager to go there again. Well, nx time i'll be going with friends or we sisters only. So parents wont control us! oops, haha. Elaine's party is tmr! Olddie friends will be going. Reunion time! Hope its gonna be fun.

Oh ya, maybe im going aus on 26th feb. Just to go there & have fun & look-see!

P.s Im going alone w/o my family chaperons!

But, im going with my best friend's sister! So counted free life for 6 days?

& i change my skin & link. Re-link, please. Thanks

Happy valentine's day to everyone too. May you share your day with your loved ones & cherish the love together!

love of all,
bernie

2008-01-30T04:16:00.000-08:00

spore trip

in the cinema
beverly 'i hate the flash light!'
beckham 'me too!'

----------------JULY BABY --------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to Be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. EasilyConsoled. Honest. Concerned about people's Feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. SensitiveAnd forms impressions carefully. Caring and Loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense ofSympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges peopleThrough observations. Hardworking. No difficulties In studying. Loves to be with friends Always broodsAbout the past an d the old friends. Waits for Friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive Unless provoked. Loves to be with friends Always broodsAbout the past an d the old friends. Waits for Friends. Ne ver looks for friends. Not aggressiveUnless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurtBut takes long to recover.

Is it true?
I wonder

2008-01-27T05:44:00.000-08:00

My Choice?
No

It can be change.
Confidence is a choice

2008-01-20T06:26:00.000-08:00

I hate weekends sometimes

Every weekends, i get to work in city square. Dad needs us to help around. Though its quite thrilling & fun to be the cashier, its tiring somehow. Once i get home, tired is the only word i can pronounce. Yest, dad brought bonnie & me for body massage. Nice one. At least able to put me to sleep after i went home. Went ngee ann poly with px before that in the afternoon. We two are just slacking? haha. Im nt so sure too. We just went there & collect some brochures. & get ourselves in the air-conditioned room! Meet khalidah, khalilah, alyssa, dian & sarali there too! What a small world! That's when they told me the release of 'O' Results too!
From what i know,
21st jan, they send the papers back to spore
24th jan, the school will get the papers
25th jan, release of results

These are just merely guessing. Elaine told me! haha. For further notice, i think its the best to watch or listen to the news.

Speaking of elaine, px & me went niniq with her to 'yum cha'. Supposingly, we two treat her. In the end, she did! Diann needs to work! So she missed it. She's gonna make up someday!

Yuxuan, xifang, loren, san, joanne, the 5 busy girls working too. Their presents still with me. Wonder if i gonna pass it to them on the coming fri?

Wish O lvl students all the best in theis results! Gd luck!

Love,
bernie

Live every note as if it were your last

2008-01-07T23:25:00.000-08:00

Anyone watch or learn shuffle? Observe the guy in white jacket & red cap! He's the coolest among all!

Im officially back from all stuff. Taiwan trip, working, project work & dealing with my future studies. Friends of mine started schooling. Smarties get into rjc, acjc, cjc, pjc, ijc. Left me, at home, wishing im one of them. I miss schooling rather than busy doing nothing. Well, i miss blogging too. My taiwan trip was great, just that it was tiring. And i would like to highlight & of course, apologise to those ppl who went taiwan with me. Bcos of me, being late, & cause so much trouble. I counted myself a pig, who loves to sleep. So sorry guys. Luckily, we were able to catch up the flight. Fortunately, some of us get to upgrade to businesss class too. Thanks to me? ( i wonder).

Im taking up pilates too! I think i weigh a ton. So someone just stop me from eating! I ate half a tub of cookies & cream ice-cream. Isnt that obvious how fat i am this days?

I would like to apologise for not contacting anyone this few days. Im still here, busy doing stuff which im not sure too! I'll be going spore soon. So i catch up with you guys later. & all presents are still on my hands! Want? contact me! =p

Well, words cant & dont explain everything. So let the pics lead you to the taiwan!

*P.s Its a long post. LOTS of pics

the four crazy girls in airport
see the 'botak', its gurmit singh! he's heading to taiwan for the golden awards!
china airlines (actually it belongs to taiwan, jsut that they wanna name it china)
yuting, PEACE !
weiting!

My partner in taiwan, Chin Fang Welcome to Taiwan
Our tour guide giving out the MAHJONG key
The first night market
Yang ming shan! miao hui & me outside taipei hotel
lee wah!
bernie & chin fang!
kiat being emo?
the stairs that tired us the whole day

waterfall
tree house!
i look messy
beggar sleeping at 10degrees?
the four funny & cute teachers
smart soldier
the middle guy looks handsome
'da nao' chong lie ci i cant see my eyes!
hello!
random shot!
shilin night market! delicious chicken which cost NT 50. zm treat me!

ma ying jiu!!
i love this pic ;D
Im holding her boobs, btw
ailin & me making our porcelain
i think i face some problem over there! haha =p
yuting's workpiece! she did it herelf w/o pros' assistance
starting with this
then slowly, you change the shape
change again, add water too
ta da!! that's it. i accidentally press it & there goes my workpiece.
great difference from yuting's !
is it direct translate or they prefer E to O?
haha! that's her!
police guy!
foo yuan & mandy eating ice cream in such a cold weather!
that's carol! =p
its windy up there
ailin, ching fang & my shadows
nice scenery
zm being emo?
we look tall from this view!
zm looks 'te ko'
our hotel roon in taichung
that's the place where we meet stephanie too! :P
my workpiece in the paper factory
kim kiat's & mine are left for drying
im making a new one!
trying to glue
do we look like we can camouflage in? NO!
Ma Ying Jiu again!
mandy looks serious!
kiddie blocking our way

temple in taichung
we learn lots of things there
they told us to remind ourselves abt this,
'treat elders with respect
treat juniors with a kind heart
treat people fairly
&
do things with a true heart'
with this, i guess your life will be different & maybe easier
chin fang & i are playing being a star & chase by paparazzi!
hiding from the cam!there she goes
my turn to hide
i cant see me, i cant see me!
we stay in there for a night! nice one.
you can hear swan busy 'chatting' during midnight!
another kind
who love this?
morning!
ms you & ms ye having breakfast
adorable kids in Xiding elementary school!

i simply love kids!
my bryan is perfoming!
this is bryan
another handsome guy! =p
is he mine?

bryan's twin brother, alan & his sis, amily
peace! isnt he adorable?!
dont laugh!
i hate the sun :x
they say this girl and me looks alike! is it true?
okay, i know, im rounder & fatter!
we're at the tea farm
ms you!
this flower looks like it's make of plastic
evening scenery
our Mr Huang, the second son of the owner.
they taught us everything & welcome us warmly!
great thanks to the Huang family!
he's making tea for the 26 of us!
my group members!
packing the tea

Have you seen sunset before?
i spent abt 45 mins waiting for it to rise at below 10 degrees (i guess, its freezing cold in alishan)

6 plus in the morning & i didn even catch a sleep as i drank too much tea teh whole night!

i love this one, its purple!

slowly, its coming up
can you see the light?
there it goes!
the shiny & mighty sun!

the whole lot of us & the ppl from the tea farm!

tanshui! its not cold there! i sweat, btw eating the famous ice-cream there. 55-60 cm which cost only NT20 = RM 2 = $1
Cheap!
we headed to
Taipei 101 cheez
in the elevator
that's bernie
everything looks so tiny which makes me looks more.....
you should know
hello
ailin & me only 5 of us went up to the highest. cos you have to pay yourself!
it cost me NT350 = RM 35 = $ 17
we were only allowed to stay for 20 mins only! =(
i love this. i wonder i can buy it.
5 muskeeteers?
me, ailin, szehow, yong song & kimkiat!
i love taiwan!
the night view
where ah bian works!
& bcos of this i knock my head while i gotta hurry get back to my seat
fyi, its taken from the bus

And so, we headed back to Spore. All with big bags & heavy weight as we ate ALOT! Some upgrade to business class, including me. Great experience & we love taiwan!

P.s. i spent around 3 hours uploading & do all this! So please enjoy it!
Great thanks

Love,
bernie

2007-12-05T04:25:00.000-08:00

Taiwan Trip!

2007-11-30T08:54:00.000-08:00

When I think of what I have, and the chance I lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

Some times I just felt I could give up.
But I don't want to let it go.

It's so unbelievable
And I see, what love means

2007-11-21T00:35:00.000-08:00

class 4e3
the 6 independent girls
its hot & stuffy in the hall
joanne
hello!
san, joanne, bernie kah mei & me joanne's shy
ting xi
ruiling!
bernie, tingxi & ruilingjogina
bernie & loren !
yuxuan, bernie & xifang!
lena!elrin!

yuxuan!
joanne again!
diana =)
ruilingnina

samuel, drunkard!
elvin. haha!
nasri =p
cam whore-zhanruiryan

bernie, adilah & norain
she's blinking her eyes =D
atikah!!
carol,tall guy, jireh

shariffa
hasif
liverpool supporters, faizal & me!
the twins! liyana

sweet
hello, the extra guy
candid

Well, i guess im abit late. Everyone starts posting pics during chalet. Mine is graduation day! haha. But still, i guess its unforgettable. Its the end of my secondary school life. I'll miss them. I missed taking pics with some friends. Too bad. But whatever it is, we're once friends!

best regards to all,

bernie

2007-11-19T05:08:00.000-08:00

Seriously, this is not gonna end. Problems keep surrounding. It will never ends. If you think this is the best way, carry on. I woudnt wanna care anymore.

Somehow i encourage myself, There's always time to try. But this time, no more. Once it reaches the end, its over.

2007-11-17T22:30:00.000-08:00

Parents 20th anniversary

More pics..

Back from HIATUS!
busy days for me! Grey's, shopping, prison break, exercising, sporting, tea-timing & chalet-ing. more pics coming up.
I'll be back soon. going for golf now!

love, bernie

2007-10-08T02:48:00.000-07:00

you cannot go through life without making mistakes

Hiatus guys! I'll back after O lvls! I may post pics from the graduation day. But it's after Os. So
all the best to O lvl students! We're gonna fight for it.

Strive for your best, guys!

Get your goals infront of you!

p.s ACJC & SAJC wait for me!

love,
bernie

2007-10-01T01:15:00.001-07:00

my messy bedroom! [funny-look]

retard
i have nth to do =P
we're heading to the mooncake festival
bev's sitting pretty blue-ie it's the mooncake festivalting xi's work piece i wonder twin would wanna eat tomato after ting xi did that ^^ alone.. waitingstudying while waiting
white edition it's in the evening
where's this place? ...
turn your head 90* clockwiseit's the old staircase
this is so NOT cool
maybe this one's better
my traditional surname. fyi, it's pronounce as 'guo' stiff-looking! =D erm, i think i look like someone =X

hey guys! this gonna be my last few posts before Os. count down 21 days. then there goes my Amaths P1. i wish you guys, good luck for Os first! & all the best to the N lvl students too!

Got back my report book today. Im not happy with it. I intend to enlarge it so i can inform myself how bad i score. i need self-motivation & determination! SAJC wait for me!!

Back to the pictures, i have nth to do, so there goes those stupid and funny pics. do you call it unglam? idk & idc too. =P I went to a mooncake festival last night. I nearly went drunk.There isn't any drinks except for beer. So.. But it's nth wrong to drink, right? & Samuel, im not drunk! Maybe half-drunk, drunkard!

Friday, went KFC with ruiling & tingxi, meet ryan, samuel, jireh & zhanrui therer. I guess, they went for the SS purpose lesson. I skip it! No choice. Ruiling and I was eating when tx, being the KPO, go squeeze my tomato. Its gross. She had nth to do & went to squeeze the chilli sauce too. I pity the sauces =P.

Some of the pics above, i took in the mrt station. I was waiting for my sis alone. I have nth to do, so i took some pics. haha. joanne, remember i told you, if you have nth to do, just take some pics to entertain yourself =P

Fang, dont think too much about the quiz. It's just stupid & lame. Alto' i do trust it somehow, trust yourself better! Bernie's better than Dog.

Liverpool finally won this sat! I dont like that guy who score. But nizar told me, he's good. Maybe i consider 'liking' him. Gerrard didn play well that day. I find him quite 'blur' when he's palying. Torres missed too. Champions leagues this wed, i'll see if i wanna watch. Studies comes first now!

Many fell asick these few days. Diann, Joanne & peep are not feeling well. Get well soon! Remember we have to fight for this last battle. Im not fully-recoverd too. My throat still aches.

Dont think too much Gny! Any problem, im here =)

I suppose it's time for me to go diet & study at the same time. Im getting fatter [i know]. I wont be back soon. Maybe i'll blog when it's time to relax. I wont be logging in to friendster too. So sorry if i reply late.

Gonna Hiatus Soon~

If this dream were to become reality

love,
bernie

2007-09-28T08:27:00.000-07:00

You Are A Social Butterfly

You love your friends so much...
You're motto is "the more, the merrier"!
Making sure everyone's included is your mission
And you always prefer a group of ten to a group of two

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Tx, ruiling & gny should read this! you guys go and try too. im a social butterfly. haha. anyway 20+ days left to Os. Its gonna be my last few posts before Os. So i'll be back soon with some pics.
Im sick & tired now.

bernie

2007-09-21T05:09:00.000-07:00

study table at the back!

i have a round face! it's time for diet-ing again!!
i'm in my pyjamas!

Dad look funny. cos bev was trying to squeeze in & i accidentally push him. there goes the funny pic. haha. my dad is handsome, btw. just that he's a bit bald now =)

Hey guys, I realise how moody and emo I sound in the previous posts. Maybe im a little down this few days. I'll get over it. Sooner or later. Oh , and thanks to those who concern.

Liverpool drew for the first champion league. My husband, torres didn't play well. Maybe he misses me too much. I know I'm being stupid saying that. But it’s the truth. Haha. Gerrard's toe hasn't recovered yet. Hope he's gonna be fine. Liverpool will move on. I guess, lena, joanne, nizar, faizal & mr bruce will agree with me. We're the Liverpool supporters! If you’re a non-liverpool fan, and you're reading this right now, please do not criticize? My tagboard is for pleasant comments. =)

Mid-Autumn festival is coming soon. And I'll be at diann’s house celebrating this sat. Get to meet up with most of the pri school friends. Long time no chat.

I was planning my time schedule and realize we have only 4+ weeks left. Buck up, guys. For the time bring, just forget about the prelims. Do not care whether your results are perfect or dreadful. Just work hard for the last MONTH. All the best! Remember, fear is the greatest evil!

My prelims aren't perfect. I fail quite a no of it. But I trust myself. I believe I can do it. Alto' I can't go for the first month thingie, but at least I know, I have the ability to go. I doubt. Well, sajc & acjc will be waiting for me! Once again, don't miss the chance and waste your opportunity.

Like what I love to say, 'Consistency makes rough going easy and free. If we regulate anything in life, it will become something of ease.'

Work hard and all the best,

Sincerely,
bernie

2007-09-19T08:15:00.000-07:00

Every cloud has a silver lining and there's not only one fish in the sea
I believe if i work hard, there's a day i wil rejoice.

I have waste a valuable opportunity once. But i trust that opportunities will present themselves again & i will grab them. It's quite late now. I guess im tired and isnt in a mood to blog. I'll brb.

take care,
bernie

2007-09-15T09:25:00.000-07:00

Marriage is either the greatest blessing or the greatest curse on earth.

So does the way you treat me.

Once more, i wish you every happiness in your life

I miss you
Even more than I can say
I miss you
Every minute of everyday
When I think of you
I dont know what to do
When will I see you again?

deepest love,
bernie

2007-09-11T02:08:00.000-07:00

If your answer is "no", I would accept it. I would seriously understand it. Somehow or other I knew that this would happen. Well, I must face it. People have to face the same thing. I would rather not see you just at present, but after some time we may renew our old friendship. Forgive me if I appear to speak too plainly, but I am convinced that it is the right thing to say. Such acquaintance as I have with you has been a pleasure to me, and I hope we may see more of one another. I hope you aware how much i value you as a friend, and how much I have relied upon you in time past. I do not wish to change the relationship. But for the other, it is idle to talk about. We’re friends, I hope so

hiatus, guys

bernie

2007-09-10T00:13:00.000-07:00

First Letter From An Accepted Lover

My dearest Julia,
I cannot express with what rapture I read your little note. It will ever remain my clearest possession. Somehow, after I had written to you yesterday I felt utterly despondent. I could not believe that you would answer 'yes'. But you have. My darling, I am the proudest and happiest person in the entire universe. I just write this note before I go off my office. I will be with you at 6 o clock. I
am so happy I dont know what I am doing.

With love,
Archie

I found it somewhere in my parents' possesion. Maybe that's what my dad told my mum. Today' chem was bad. No As. This gonna be my last post during this prelim period. I think i spend too much time here. So, time to mug again. Kok's tuition is later.

bye and all the best, guys

p.s. im 'julia'

fondest love,
bernie

2007-09-07T23:21:00.000-07:00

my beloved mum and I :)

My funny faces

sincero
bev's at the back

i hate this, actually

messy hair, always :(
& fat !
rabbit ?
hello:)
my favourite buttercup

p.s im indeed a camwhore, nasri ;P

its time to mug. im back. at least i can concentrate more on my studies ! I've just finished my chem and emaths. Do hope i can score well. Anyway i wanna thanks ms lim too.
Thanks for being there when i need some help.You're indeed a pretty, young and thoughtful 'mum' [oops, again :P] take care & study hard too, everyone !
prelims !

good luck ~

what is over, is over
no point regretting
it's time to solve or even wait..

regards,
bernie

2007-09-07T01:49:00.000-07:00

what meant to be will find its way

i took the wrong turn & its the truth
time will pass & it will tell

i do cherish the lovely memories we share

Gonna screwed up my prelims

No A- for ALL
esp chem & FNN
X-8-pointer
X- ACJC
X-SAJC

good luck, guys

bye grabb

love, bernie

2007-09-03T02:34:00.000-07:00

where's bernie ?

credits to gny :)

blurry :P

candid :D

i woke up in the morning and felt nothing to do and there goes the special pic.
I was wondering how i did that, so one day i can take more of that.

i look like a mad woman in the first pic.

& btw, im not a camwhore. at least better than beverly & some peeps !! :P

back to amaths and chemistry.

take care !!

bye pojke~

love,

bernie

p.s i'm a AJC member now !

2007-09-01T22:49:00.000-07:00

I really intend to give up !
So dont worry guys. I can do it !
Its not worth it right ?

It’s holiday now. It’s time to mug and be prepared for prelims.
ACJC or SAJC is waiting for me.
Be prepared for the maths and sciences :D

Anyway this song is really nice. I dont know whether its an old or new song.
But i overheard it at bev's blog ! haha

Click it >> Wish upon a star

Lunch time !
Im making spaghetti.
Should be delicious :)

Back soon,
bernie

2007-09-01T00:47:00.000-07:00

Whatever it is, this is my choice

My world has changed and so have I

I've learned to choose and even learned to say good-bye

The path ahead so hard to see

It winds and bends but where it ends

depends on only me

In my heart I dont feel part

Of so much I've known

Now it seems its time to start

A new life of my own

But where do i go from here

So many voices ringing in my ear

Which is the voice that i was meant to hear

How would i know
Where do i go

From here

Yesterday was teachers day. With those pizzas, liyana's cake and my dunkin donuts, and the music band by nasri, hasif and azmi, it was definitely a great party celebration. Even ms lim was touched till her tears nearly fall. Btw, i hope she knows which present is mine. The concert in the hall was also fun. The teachers and us exchange roles. They became the students and we became them. I love them alot. The performance was quite long till my butt become warm. After that, i went back to marsiling pri. I missed my bus-stop which makes me feel so stupid. I was suppposed to alight at the bus-stop outside marsiling. But i want to go marsiling mrt first. So i waited for the next stop. However, i forgot 912 doesnt stop there. So in the end, i miss and went to causeway. And i have to rush back to marsiling pri again. It was around 2+ at that time. I meet Natasha and Dian there. Have a small and nice chat with them. I miss elaine ! She went back first :( anyway i went causeway again. i meet and ate lunch with an old friend. He is really humorous. (And btw, you still look as handsome as before, im serious) but i know, you wont read my blog. haha. okay, i meet up with my sis after that and went back home and sleep for 13 hours and im here now.

I was browsing through ppl's blog, and i seriously think rebecca noelle is hot ! i may suggest you guys to visit nasri's blog too. you will love it ! samuel, you should go & i will laugh at you ! haha. anw gny is still sick, but she's feeling better. hope she's gonna recover soon. ruling, sorry for the donuts. but i hope you enjoy eating that. xifang, yuxuan, hwee san, loren & joanne, thanks for accompany me to eat LJS ! it was fun ! do hope you guys enjoy it too ! candy is really sweet now ! :)

I will try, altho, it's hard

no matter what, im always there

with love,
bernie

2007-08-20T06:06:00.000-07:00

Im on hiatus !

love, bernie

2007-08-19T04:16:00.000-07:00

Man Meets Wife Via Message-in-a-Bottle

-Its a true story. reported by: kernie

Paolina and Ake Viking were married in Sicily in the autumn of 1958, thanks to a far-traveling bottle. Two years earlier Ake, a bored young Swedish sailor on a ship far out at sea, had dropped a bottle overboard with a message asking any pretty girl who found it to write. Paolina's father, a Sicilian fisherman, picked it up and passed it to his daughter for a joke. Continuing the joke, Paolina sent off a note to the young sailor. The correspondence quickly grew warmer. Ake visited Sicily, and the marriage soon followed their first meeting.

The tale was widely reported in the news back in the late 1950s. A 1959 article in The American Weekly titled "Love in a Bottle" told the story in more detail and actually included a few pictures of the happy couple, in one of which (shown above) they were posing at the spot where she found the bottle. Here's the text of the American Weekly article:

Ake, a Swedish sailor, relieved his tedium at sea one day in 1955 by writing a letter. "To Someone'Beautiful and Far Away," he poetically inscribed it. After giving his home address and a brief description of himself, he added, "Write to me, whoever you are," and signed his name. With that, he tucked the paper into an empty bottle of aqua vitae, replaced its cork and tossed it overboard. Two years went by. Then, on his return from another voyage, he found a letter, postmarked Syracuse, Sicily. The message was in Italian, which one of his shipmates obligingly translated. It was from a 17-year-old girl, who wrote: "Last Tuesday, I found a bottle on the shore. Inside was a piece of paper, bearing writing in a strange language. I took it to our priest, who is a great scholar. He said the language was Swedish and, with the help of a dictionary, he read me your charming letter. I am not beautiful, but it seems so miraculous that this little bottle should have traveled so far and long to reach me that I must send you an answer ..." Other letters, consigned to ordinary post, followed the first two. Photographs were exchanged and, finally, vows. Ake set sail for Syracuse and now, together, he and his pretty, if not beautiful, correspondent, who has just turned 18, are embarked on the sea of matrimony.

Its touching and a sweet thing to read. :)

love,
bernie

2007-08-19T02:08:00.000-07:00

You guys may wanna watch. Britain Next Top model ! Another new series of top models ! Gny introduce it to me. enjoy watching it ! prelims is in few days time so im on hiatus.

love,
bernie

2007-08-14T01:18:00.000-07:00

You are my best friend through thick and thin.
You are the bestest friend that i can have.

You are there for me when i need you the most.
You cheer me up when i am down.
If i am about to cry u make me smile.
You are my bestest friend and its
not a lie.

You listen to me and give me advice,
advice that comes straight from the bottom of your precious heart.
You are my best friend in the world
and i couldn't ask God for a little bit more.

We are going to grow older,
and things will change but our Friendship will forever still remain.
I'll make new friends
but that won't change because you will always be my best friend.

I'd like to mean as much to you as you mean to me.
I'd like to be some help to you as you have been to me.
I'd like to know that as we grow old, our lives will change but that our
Friendship will still remain.

Me and you will never be apart maybe in distance
but never in heart for our friendship is way to strong to let it go off
just like that.

All i can say is that you are my best friend
and i swear to God that i don't want it to change.

I maybe at a different place in future but that doesn't mean that our friendship will end,
because you will Always be my best friend.

No matter what life has destined for us I know that our friendship will never die.

your best friend ever,
bernie

2007-08-13T08:15:00.000-07:00

I change my blogskin again ! thanks to kernie ! anyway i scored an A for my O lvl Mt paper. Im so happy. I think im gonna smile and sleep tonight ! my dad's calling, i gotta go.

p.s. love you girl

be back soon,
bernie

2007-08-11T20:55:00.000-07:00

There never was a bright day
Why?
Always gloomy

As if torrid rain clouds had taken over the sky
I sit to write to you but nothing comes
Through nights and nights my heart fondly recalls
Of the time we spent together
Good or bad things that were ever said or done
I try to remember

When your heart turned
Away from me
When the weather changed
From a warm evening breeze
To freezing rain

My heart breaks into pieces
Bringing me down to my knees

As tears flow freely down
Like autumn leaves
Forgotten
Not daring to scream out loud
Confusion, pain, and sorrow
Seem to be my only companions

These feelings I hid
Though in this life they seem to be
All that is left
But I still hope
You will erase
The reason why you felt the need

To leave me behind to face this harsh world on my own

Many things happen this few days. That's the reason why i cant online and blog. But thanks to those who concern. Due to my previous post, if there is anything, anyone of you is unhappy, you may come and tell me. I wont mind. Prelim is in few weeks time. Pray hard to all gods. And lastly, tmr will be the release of O lvl Mt results. All the best to you guys. I will pray hard for you guys too. And world championhips is tmr, i get to see KKBH again. I have no mood to continue anymore. But at least,Im alright and happy ! See ya tmr in school. One more thing again, Im pretty lazy to post some pictures on the performance ( so sorry). You guys may wanna go my sis, Beverly's blog . Its interesting.

P.S maybe my sis is right, i shouldnt blog often. She keep reminding me that my prelims and Os are around the corner. So i will listen to her then (maybe)

gotta go,

bernie

2007-08-04T06:25:00.000-07:00

Change

I anticipated some change,
From this mundane, pointless existence,
A change, for the better,
I will have a lot on my mind,
So much to do,
Or so I thought.
Even with all the countless forms of amusement
At my disposal,
I still can't while away my time
Still can't gratify my weary mind,
Alas! It is company I long for ...
Company of like-minded people,
With an equal degree of craziness,
all who seem to be far away,
out of reach,
Looks like I just have to count the days,
When we'll meet up again,
Or till we change upon each other,Wonder when will that be ?

This few days i was pretty busy again. The same stuffs, work and people ! One think to say 'Im sorry i cant post the racial harmony pics. Cos i didn get all of them. If i pose some, the others will come & ask why i didn post the theirs' So too bad. But it was quite fun on that day. Im a reddie girl !

I've just got the prelim time table, which means i have to start my planning again. Samuel said im hardworking, but i dont think so. Maybe i should work harder ! Okay, studies should go aside for today ! Cos tmr will be the performing day !! Im gonna be very nervous. Bonnie, Beverly and I have to sing infront 400 people. I do hope i wont be trembling when im singing. I need some backup from the two of them =) We're performing for an association (i think). Some sort like Hakka of whatever. Im not so entu but Bonnie is. She's looking for K.C:) Im gonna dress in black and white. Angel and devil day. Tmr will be a very busy day. Practicing for the singin, preparing our clothing, going saloon, making up & lots of the girls stuff ! That's what girls always do !

For 'your' information, im really single ! please dont bother Gny. She is so angry. If you're the next one to ask her again, i bet she will kill me. haha. Cool down Ginny !!

Ps. I will try to post the pics from the performance.

Be back again,
bernie

2007-07-27T08:50:00.000-07:00

I love you, I love you,
I swear I do,
I hate you, I hate you,
I swear that's true.

I wish you'd go away,
I wish you'd stay,I wish, I wish, you'd go away.

If you ever wonder why im here, then you dont understand me.
Overcoming the fear isnt as simple as talking & thinking

-- bernie

2007-07-21T04:41:00.000-07:00

Every day can be a beautiful day.Just take a look around you and think about all of the wonderful things you have to be thankful for…the sunshine, roses, laughter, closes friends, family, music, and beautiful dreams. The storm is never half as bad as it seems.Don't let the rain ruin your day.When the dark clouds move in,just smile, because the good times are on the way.

Busy preparing myself for the prelim. Hope i can be back soon ! Take care, davie

bernie

2007-07-17T03:00:00.000-07:00

You're special, aren't you ?

I liked the way you smile at me,
It reminds me of warmth in the winter,
But I hate it every time you take it away,
Because it tears my heart into two at the same time.

I liked the way your hair smells
As it reminds me of your personality,
And I hate it always,
When you turn and walk away from me.

I liked the way you talk to me,
And I hated it when we started arguing,
Because of some silly disagreement,
And when you rain on me blows to keep me obedient.

I liked the way you looked at me,
As your eyes filled with sincerity and hope,
And by taking those eyes away,
You put me deep within the gloom.

I liked the way you were yourself,
Because that's what makes you special,
But after each argument with you,
I'm starting to wonder whether it's still true.

gloom

partial or total darkness

2007-07-15T06:23:00.000-07:00

The previous blogskin have some problem. So i have to change one. I think its gonna be the final one, provided that there's no problem. Its quite tiring as my blog always have problem ! But anyway i love this skin too. O level Listening Compre tomorrow !

Good Lucks Pals !

bernie

2007-07-14T04:31:00.000-07:00

Fear is the greatest evil
- Bernie

Dear davie, today was a pretty hard day for me. Early in the morning, i have tuiton. Altho, i get to learn something, it's still quite tiring. When i have told myself i have to get on diet, i eat quite alot. I skip lunch, which turn out to eat more during dinner. My grandma cook alot of porkie foods ! Maybe elderly people love those food, but i seriously think that she should cut down the oil. Spending the whole afternoon doing work, isnt a really tring thing. But just, today isnt the best day for me to study. Suddenly felt that my English s*** again. Maybe because i cant write well. I jolly well need a dictionary or thesaurus by my side. Ms gomez said that i can speak well, but when it comes to writing, she said 'bleah !' So what does it means ? Obviously, i know what should i do. O level is around the corner. Do wish i can get 8 points. As i have bet with Samuel & Augustin. Make sure, you guys take your words seriously ! Gotta put in more effort studying !

Lastly, i miss Jamie. She wont be reading this as she doesnt even know. But she's the one that motivates me to study ! Miss ya, jamie ! Hope you do well this year (which she obviously able to do that)

be back soon
bernie

2007-07-10T03:05:00.000-07:00

Shopping !
Outside paragon
Ms whities !

Married !

my uncle & my new aunt !

haha. do they look nervous ?

dad signing the ___. He's the i-do-not-know-what's-called.
(but he's the eldest cos my grandfather had died long ago !)

exchanging of rings ! We shall pronounce them husband & wife !

bernie, dad & beverly

I feel like marrying too !
ps. can you see my aunts gossiping at the back ? haha

Davie, Im back. 07.07.07, i went to ROM. My uncle is married ! Finally ! He's like 40+. Although my relationship with him isnt very good, but at least i know he's pretty happy on that day. When i was there, there was 77 couples married on the same day too. Maybe people love the date. I bet next year, 08.08.08 or the year after, 09.09.09, there will have even more couples marrying on that day ! If you're there, you can feel the 'love' in those newly-wed couples. So I was like 'I want to marry to !!' Haha. If you people wonder, where's my mother, she's in overseas. So she cant attend my uncle's wedding. She missed it ! But the next day, 08.07.07, we went to pick her. On the way to the airport, we went shopping. My sisters and I simply love shopping. We went to paragon & look for my crumpler bag !! My dad intend to give it to me as my birthday present. But after much consideration, i decide to buy it myself. Sometimes, its better to spend your own money buying your faves things, so you will treasure it more. We went to eat DIN TAI FUNG ! My favourite restaurant ! I love the xiao long bao there. It's worth eating.Mum bought me nothing, cos she was pretty busy over there. She owe me a phone !

*Anyway Im on diet ! My uncle is planning his wedding dinner next month. So i have to lose SOME weight in order to look 'nice' in those outfits ! He maybe gonna organised it in the church ! Looking forward to it !
P.S please dont show me chocolates, sweets or bread. If not, my diet plan will be unsuccessful !

Lastly, im watching Harry Potter on Friday night !! Daniel Radcliffe ! Love him. Rupert Grint is cute & i love the twin brothers ! Maybe fred is mine, or george ? Hermione is gorgeous !

Be back soon,
bernie

2007-07-05T01:31:00.000-07:00

Thanks to those who wish me ! I really appreciate it ! And those who gave me presents, thanks again !

I'm back. My birthday is finally over. I have lots of fun ! Celebrating with girlfriends and family will always be the best choice. I've receive lots of present too. Left xi fang's ? haha. (joking, xi fang !) Anyway i have three birthday cakes, which means i get to wish 3 times. In total, i cant believe that i have 8 wishes ! Normally, people will have only three wishes. But i have 8 ! That's me. So basically, on my birthday, i get to eat at 'NEW HONG KONG' restaurant which my parents used to have their wedding dinner there. Our dinner was joined by our grandmother and aunt. I just cant stand aunt. She's really irritating sometimes. But too bad, mum loves her. So when we were there, dad order one abalone for me. Im 'bao yi' and abalone is 'bao yu'. So we are sisters. When the dish came, everyone on the table was looking at me eating. as im the only one who gets to eat ! But the abalone doesnt really taste nice.Its abit raw and have a fishy smell. Luckily, i do not have stomachache after that !

On monday, we went KTV. But the previous night, i receive a message from ting xi. She said adrienne and her have to perform some charity show, so they cant come. I was pretty disappointing. Then on the the actual day, i receive a message fron ruiling. She said that her sis fall asick ! So that means left ginny and i ! It was really disappointing ! Then i suggest to watch rather than singing KTV as its gonna be so funny for two person to keep singing non-stop. But ginny insist on going. When we reach party world, ginny just said " Im ginny ! " And the guy straight away show us our rome ! I was just wondering what happen, and then i saw them ! Lee Ruiling, Chan Ting Xi & Adrienne Tan ! They lie to me ! but they gave me a surprise. I think it was Gny's idea. She's really smart at acting too ! She was lying to me all the way to KTV. Somemore, she uses some stupid excuses which she said she have a quarrel with her friend. & i believe too ! Maybe im too 'innocent' ! haha. But i was really shocked. They have planned everthing so well. Thanks GNY, RUILING, ARDIRENNE & TING XI !!!

Well, after my birthday, its time to study. I have only 100 days left to O levels ? Have to keep on studying then. NO MORE SLACKING ! Sports day is tomorrow ? Can i still run ?

bernie

2007-06-30T08:48:00.000-07:00

You Are Pretty Happy Being Single

You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content.
Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while.
But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything!

Are You Happy Being Single?

Im single !! I've just change my blogskin. I somehow, like it ! Anyway 3 days left !!

Love isnt about being about being afraid that it will be snatched away. Love's about finding the one who makes your heart complete, who makes you a better person than yo uever dreamed you could be. Its about looking in the eyes of him/hers and knowing, all the way to your bones, that he/she is simply the best person you've ever known.

bernie

2007-06-29T02:37:00.000-07:00

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!
Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.
If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.
You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

You are a Career Girl!

You may not be a CEO yet, but you're well on your way to success.
You take your career seriously, and you wouldn't stop working for any guy!
An independent woman, you pay for your own car, clothes, and housing.
And men appreciate that - at least, the ones as driven as you are.

What Kind of Girl Are You?

A lot of things happen this few days, schools have just re-opened and my homework is piling up. Time is really running out. I need more time!! Okay, I just have my mother tongue oral today. It’s really hard. I do believe that im not going to score well; as we can re-take the paper, but not the ORAL. So I have to leave to the god to decide. Anyway lots of things happen too. I will have to summarize what happen recently.

Past few days, I was having tuition everyday (almost). Like AMaths, Physics, Chemistry and ENGLISH. My English tutor told me that I can score well for my prelim and Os. Starting, I was so shocked. I mean I wanna score well for my prelim and O level. But just that the results do not prove me so. I have to buck up somehow. Or else how can I beat Ms Lim, Samuel (AJC guy) & Nasri (CJC guy) ?

I went to this website too. It was fun. I think it's more suitable for girls to go as the questions are to be answered by girls=). I did some 'tests' which prove that im a 'Professional Girlfriend and a Career Woman'. It is shown ABOVE ^^^ It’s quite accurate as im gonna be a Career Woman (hope so) As for the 'girlfriend', maybe someone know. And for that '56% girlish', does it suits me ? cos I think it should be 50% or more than that ?

You Are 56% Girly

You're a little girly, a little boyish, and probably a whole lot indie.
You have your own unique style, and it pretty much defies gender lines.

How Girly Are You?

Good News!!
My birthday is coming. It's like 4 days time? I got to celebrate thrice which I think it will be fun. 1st July, im celebrating with the KOK family, which are my aunts, uncles and cousins. Actually, we don't intend to celebrate my birthday at first. It's just that we suppose to have a gathering every month when we can GOSSIP and meet up. So kill two birds at a time. I will have more presents. 2nd July, im going out with my girlfriends, it will be so FUN !! We're like the Crazy Five ? Hot Five ? Pretty Five ? Okay, we haven come up with a name that is suitable for us. Maybe 'Simple Five' ? haha. We're going KTV !! Anyway they were suppose to give me a surprise, but GNY pang accidentally spilled the beans out. Haha. I don't mind as I know we're gonna have fun there. Lastly, on my actual birthday 3rd July, im celebrating with my family. I simply love them. Although, we don't keep saying 'I LOVE YOU' to each others. But deep in our hearts, we do. So normally, the best I will give it to my family. Just for the time being, we haven decide where to go. Most probably go to a restaurant and eat ? Simple dinner but full of MY LOVE !!

And I remember Maryjane’s birthday falls on 2nd July. Hui Kee, Chao Qun, Lex and ME are born on the same day. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THEM TOO !! We’re the July Babies !

Okay, I know I have type quite a lot. I have to or someone will come and ask 'Why you haven update your blog ?' or 'When are you going to ?' Do it one straight through & they wont ask. Simply, it gonna take a few days before I come and post; as like what I say, I have inevitable homework to do. Maybe I will post some pics from my '3 gatherings'?

Before I forget, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SIMIN AND RYAN TOO.

bernie

2007-06-15T01:57:00.001-07:00

pinkie old nails, but i love it !

Davie, that's my nails. I made it myself. But i somehow regret. As my sis says there are quite old. Hey ! should be mature. But i still love it. I think i gonna have it remove soon as school re-opening soon too. I dont think WRSS teachers would wanna me as a student with those fingers.=) Mrs Kok may also come and look for me. Anyway, i have lots of work undone yet. All those school and tuiton stuff. I hope god may spare some more time for me. (if he could). These few days im QUITE free, which means i may blog often. But sometimes, i do wonder if anyone read. But i dont mind, cos Davie will be reading. Right Davie ? I just watch the badminton match. KKBH lost again. I do hope they will buck up. One day, the World No 2 ( that's what my sis says) ranking will drop. Lastly, i would like to inform* this person*, i simply love my blog. I dont need your comments. If you dont like to hang around here, you may just click the [X] button at the top right hand corner. I think i wouldnt mind. Before you do that, i would like to say thanks !

Bernie will be around !

2007-06-12T08:26:00.001-07:00

hey guys ! im back. have been working this few days. so have anyone look at the pic above ? cos its my new shoes. i just bought it ! is it nice ? but i love it. the pic is not taken well. anyway i decided to name my blog. DAVIE !! nice name ? i hope so. Okay, im going shopping tmr !! GREAT SINGAPORE SALE. so i see you tmr SINGAPORE !!

bye DAVIE. I come back asap !!

bernie

2007-06-07T09:38:00.000-07:00

Everyone wants to be beautiful and plastic surgery has become the quickest way to achieve 'perfection'

Recently, I just watch this romantic, comedy movie, 200 pounds of beauty. This movie revolves around Hanna who has a fantastic and sweet voice. But because she's fat and unsightly, she can only be a 'back-whole-up' or 'ghost' singer for a lip-syncing singer. Hanna always seems happy, especialy when the man of her dreams, the music producer,Sang Jun gives her a smile or a kind of work. When others keep on belittle and humilate Hanna, she decided to go for a full-body plastic surgery. Then she re-appears as a slim and sexy sensation. Then after that, the movie continues in whether her new look gurantee her love and success. I hope someone will go and watch; and maybe tell me the ending ?

I love this movie. I felt delightful after i watch. Starting, it was really funny. However, at the last part, everything seems to be very emotional. You can see girls crying in the cinema or even yourself at home.(doesnt mean anything) I love the girl's voice. Her wide-eyed innonence is a joy to watch and it is simply mesmerising. I love it when she sang the song, Maria too. After watching this movie, i learned that Honesty is the best policy, whether everything about you is 'real' or 'done to prefection. So wake up pals, Nature is Beauty

Please go and watch. i think it is worth watching. Altho, i didn get to watch it in the cinema. But i get to watch it in my com. So hope someone wil go and watch.

Bye, pals
berneie

2007-06-06T00:04:00.000-07:00

Bernie's life

Many People are excessively busy because they allow themselves to respond to every magnet: tracking too much data, processing too much information, answering to too many people, taking on too many tasks - all in the sense that this is the way they must live in order to keep up and stay in control. But it's the magnets that have control.

I consider my life to be somewhat filled and fulfilling. I have my family, my friends,my homework, my books and TYSs, working (sometimes), exercise (whenever Im free) and socialise reguarly. I even have time to go shopping, read novels and catch a movie with my family and friends or play a game of tennis and practice my golf, once in a while. In our busy, busy world, I sometimes feel as if I am the odd one out. There are those who are overworked and overwhelmed complain ceaselessly, it is often with an undertone of boastfulness; the hidden message is that I'm so busy because I'm important. Now I realise that busyness is not an absolute: Everyone has a different threshold. Some love to have party, party, party. But most people would trade in bored for a little stress if they were engaged in doing something they loved. I am referring to those who choose to have their life in such a frenetic pace that seems largely self-imposed, unnecessary and enjoyable.

2007-06-02T03:54:00.000-07:00

Hi Everone !

Havent blog since a long time. Im really sorry. Supposingly, today should be a good day for me. But suddenly, i feel so DOWN. I was looking around at others blog. Theirs are really BLOG. To me, Blog is like a formal diary. Not really formal, but use proper english to write it. (those who dont, i mean nothing or any criticism). Now, turn back and look at mine. You can see the difference. I really feel bad. I mean myself, not others. Okay, i dont really know what im blogging now. Wait till, i feel better, then i'll be back. Bye guys !

2007-06-01T03:34:00.000-07:00

MY BLOG IS DONE ! I made it all by myself. So if anyone read this, please do let me know OR comment in my tagboard. I will appreciate it. Thanks alot !!

2007-04-20T23:51:00.000-07:00

OOPS ! something wrong with my blog again. The tagboard & those links all gone. I think sth wrong with my template. But i need time to figure it out. So for the time being, just read my post, no TAGGING !! sorry !!

2007-04-20T23:05:00.000-07:00

My mid-year is around the corner. So i dont think i will have time to come and blog. Pleae bear with me. I will come up whenever i have time. Anyway, Liverpool vs Wigan tonight !! i bet liverpool will sure win. They ROCKS !! But they have a match with Chelsea on Wednesday. The chances of winning will be slim. But LIVERPOOL must win !! So ManU can win Chelsea if they lose.Its the EPL match, if im not mistaken. Altho im a LIVERPOOL fan, i will want ManU to win the EPL & FA cup. REDS support the red team. DEVILS too !! GOAL FOR LIVERPOOL & MANU !!
PS. if you're a ARSERNAL OR CHELSEA fan. please do not tell me. haha

2007-04-20T22:43:00.000-07:00

haha. Koo Kien Kiat & Tan Boon Heong. This is pic is not taken by me, so you can see their face clearly. But if u see mine, you can only see their back view. haha. but i gonna wait for my sis to be back then i can upload their pic. She kept the pic for herself !! joking.

2007-04-20T22:26:00.000-07:00

OMG !! I JUST WENT FOR AN INJECTION !! oh god !! but it wasnt really very pain. Just that, i will feel pain for myself. haha. okay, forget about it. This few days or weeks, i am sooo busy. Studying and doing work, & watch badminton match too !! i have lots to talk about them. Although they didn win the ASIAN CHAMPIONSHIPS, i do believe they will get into the AVIVA OPEN SINGAPORE FINAL !! so let's wait. ( noted: 1st May to 6th May). I will post some pics of them when they were in the JB indoor stadium.Although its not very clear, but they smile at me !! haha Koo Kien Keat & Tan Boon Heong ! Let's wish them all the best for their upcoming match !!

2007-04-02T04:15:00.000-07:00

Oh god !! My blog suppose to be http://ishouldnt-be-alive.blogspot.com/ But i dont know why. It cannot be use. Then i have to change to http://www.ishouldntbe-alive.blogspot.com/ !! This stupid blogger thing reallly make me damn angry !! I have to change it because of the stupid system !! argh.... Then for those who know my blog, Please be noted that it have been changed. For today, i dont really have the mood to write about anything. It suppose to be Happy Day. Just because of this BLOGGER NAME !! anyway bye, pals !

bernie

2007-03-30T10:10:00.000-07:00

OMG !! Im damn tired now. My eyes is so damn pain. Just because i put on my contact lenses for 20 hours !! it's so dry. Anyway, its so late now. Everyone is sleeping as tmr i have to go SHAO MU !! its like we gonna wake up at 6. Oh god, i need more resting time. Can someone spare me some if they find that they have too much of them. Haha. Okay then, i gotta sleep now. Or else i gonna have two dark circles around my eyes. Bye pals !

2007-03-29T09:22:00.000-07:00

my blog may seem to be simple or bored, i hope you wont mind. As im not a person who will online often or keep on posting. So guys, please kindly bear with this blog now !!
Lastly, i would like to thank GINNY PANG !! she's the one who help me with this blog. But this was like when ? Last year !! haha. okay. But still, THANKS GNY !! love ya !!

2007-03-29T09:09:00.000-07:00

hey everyone out there !! this is me. Ms Bernie. & the girl next to her is her elder sis, Bonnie. Do we look alike ? Some say we look like twins. Anyway, i still have a younger sis named Beverly. But for the time being, there isnt any nice pic taken by we two. So gonna wait to look at her.

2007-03-29T08:49:00.000-07:00

HELLO EVERYONE !!
as if there will be someone reading this blog. Anyway i am just trying to post something. As this is my VERY FIRST POST !! so i do hope SOMEONE will read this & maybe give me a comment or whatever. Bernie will try to do something with her blog so that she will have friends round here. & of course someone who will link me !!

so all the best to those who read this message !!

love,
bernie

2006-10-30T22:59:00.000-08:00

TODAY IS THE BIRTHDATE OF BERBERLAND, LET'S CELEBRATE!

((:
Love,
ginny